I now come to the time in which I myself was mixed up with the people
that I have been writing about. And to make you understand how I
became connected with them, I must give you some little account of
myself. My father was the younger son of a Devonshire gentleman of
moderate property; my eldest uncle succeeded to the estate of his
forefathers, my second became an eminent attorney in London, and my
father took orders. Like most poor clergymen, he had a large family;
and I have no doubt was glad enough when my London uncle, who was a
bachelor, offered to take charge of me, and bring me up to be his
successor in business.
In this way I came to live in London, in my uncle's house, not far
from Gray's Inn, and to be treated and esteemed as his son, and to
labour with him in his office. I was very fond of the old gentleman.
He was the confidential agent of many country squires, and had
attained to his present position as much by knowledge of human nature
as by knowledge of law; though he was learned enough in the latter.
He used to say his business was law, his pleasure heraldry. From his
intimate acquaintance with family history, and all the tragic courses
of life therein involved, to hear him talk, at leisure times, about
any coat of arms that came across his path was as good as a play or a
romance. Many cases of disputed property, dependent on a love of
genealogy, were brought to him, as to a great authority on such
points. If the lawyer who came to consult him was young, he would
take no fee, only give him a long lecture on the importance of
attending to heraldry; if the lawyer was of mature age and good
standing, he would mulct him pretty well, and abuse him to me
afterwards as negligent of one great branch of the profession. His
house was in a stately new street called Ormond Street, and in it he
had a handsome library; but all the books treated of things that were
past; none of them planned or looked forward into the future. I
worked away--partly for the sake of my family at home, partly because
my uncle had really taught me to enjoy the kind of practice in which
he himself took such delight. I suspect I worked too hard; at any
rate, in seventeen hundred and eighteen I was far from well, and my
good uncle was disturbed by my ill looks.
One day, he rang the bell twice into the clerk's room at the dingy
office in Grey's Inn Lane. It was the summons for me, and I went
into his private room just as a gentleman--whom I knew well enough by
sight as an Irish lawyer of more reputation than he deserved--was
leaving.
My uncle was slowly rubbing his hands together and considering. I
was there two or three minutes before he spoke. Then he told me that
I must pack up my portmanteau that very afternoon, and start that
night by post-horse for West Chester. I should get there, if all
went well, at the end of five days' time, and must then wait for a
packet to cross over to Dublin; from thence I must proceed to a
certain town named Kildoon, and in that neighbourhood I was to
remain, making certain inquiries as to the existence of any
descendants of the younger branch of a family to whom some valuable
estates had descended in the female line. The Irish lawyer whom I
had seen was weary of the case, and would willingly have given up the
property, without further ado, to a man who appeared to claim them;
but on laying his tables and trees before my uncle, the latter had
foreseen so many possible prior claimants, that the lawyer had begged
him to undertake the management of the whole business. In his youth,
my uncle would have liked nothing better than going over to Ireland
himself, and ferreting out every scrap of paper or parchment, and
every word of tradition respecting the family. As it was, old and
gouty, he deputed me.
Accordingly, I went to Kildoon. I suspect I had something of my
uncle's delight in following up a genealogical scent, for I very soon
found out, when on the spot, that Mr. Rooney, the Irish lawyer, would
have got both himself and the first claimant into a terrible scrape,
if he had pronounced his opinion that the estates ought to be given
up to him. There were three poor Irish fellows, each nearer of kin
to the last possessor; but, a generation before, there was a still
nearer relation, who had never been accounted for, nor his existence
ever discovered by the lawyers, I venture to think, till I routed him
out from the memory of some of the old dependants of the family.
What had become of him? I travelled backwards and forwards; I
crossed over to France, and came back again with a slight clue, which
ended in my discovering that, wild and dissipated himself, he had
left one child, a son, of yet worse character than his father; that
this same Hugh Fitzgerald had married a very beautiful serving-woman
of the Byrnes--a person below him in hereditary rank, but above him
in character; that he had died soon after his marriage, leaving one
child, whether a boy or a girl I could not learn, and that the mother
had returned to live in the family of the Byrnes. Now, the chief of
this latter family was serving in the Duke of Berwick's regiment, and
it was long before I could hear from him; it was more than a year
before I got a short, haughty letter--I fancy he had a soldier's
contempt for a civilian, an Irishman's hatred for an Englishman, an
exiled Jacobite's jealousy of one who prospered and lived tranquilly
under the government he looked upon as an usurpation. "Bridget
Fitzgerald," he said, "had been faithful to the fortunes of his
sister--had followed her abroad, and to England when Mrs. Starkey had
thought fit to return. Both his sister and her husband were dead, he
knew nothing of Bridget Fitzgerald at the present time: probably Sir
Philip Tempest, his nephew's guardian, might be able to give me some
information." I have not given the little contemptuous terms; the
way in which faithful service was meant to imply more than it said--
all that has nothing to do with my story. Sir Philip, when applied
to, told me that he paid an annuity regularly to an old woman named
Fitzgerald, living at Coldholme (the village near Starkey Manor-
house). Whether she had any descendants he could not say.
One bleak March evening, I came in sight of the places described at
the beginning of my story. I could hardly understand the rude
dialect in which the direction to old Bridget's house was given.
"Yo' see yon furleets," all run together, gave me no idea that I was
to guide myself by the distant lights that shone in the windows of
the Hall, occupied for the time by a farmer who held the post of
steward, while the Squire, now four or five and twenty, was making
the grand tour. However, at last, I reached Bridget's cottage--a
low, moss-grown place: the palings that had once surrounded it were
broken and gone; and the underwood of the forest came up to the
walls, and must have darkened the windows. It was about seven
o'clock--not late to my London notions--but, after knocking for some
time at the door and receiving no reply, I was driven to conjecture
that the occupant of the house was gone to bed. So I betook myself
to the nearest church I had seen, three miles back on the road I had
come, sure that close to that I should find an inn of some kind; and
early the next morning I set off back to Coldholme, by a field-path
which my host assured me I should find a shorter cut than the road I
had taken the night before. It was a cold, sharp morning; my feet
left prints in the sprinkling of hoar-frost that covered the ground;
nevertheless, I saw an old woman, whom I instinctively suspected to
be the object of my search, in a sheltered covert on one side of my
path. I lingered and watched her. She must have been considerably
above the middle size in her prime, for when she raised herself from
the stooping position in which I first saw her, there was something
fine and commanding in the erectness of her figure. She drooped
again in a minute or two, and seemed looking for something on the
ground, as, with bent head, she turned off from the spot where I
gazed upon her, and was lost to my sight. I fancy I missed my way,
and made a round in spite of the landlord's directions; for by the
time I had reached Bridget's cottage she was there, with no semblance
of hurried walk or discomposure of any kind. The door was slightly
ajar. I knocked, and the majestic figure stood before me, silently
awaiting the explanation of my errand. Her teeth were all gone, so
the nose and chin were brought near together; the gray eyebrows were
straight, and almost hung over her deep, cavernous eyes, and the
thick white hair lay in silvery masses over the low, wide, wrinkled
forehead. For a moment, I stood uncertain how to shape my answer to
the solemn questioning of her silence.
"I have something to say to you. May I come in? I am unwilling to
keep you standing."
"You cannot tire me," she said, and at first she seemed inclined to
deny me the shelter of her roof. But the next moment--she had
searched the very soul in me with her eyes during that instant--she
led me in, and dropped the shadowing hood of her gray, draping cloak,
which had previously hid part of the character of her countenance.
The cottage was rude and bare enough. But before the picture of the
Virgin, of which I have made mention, there stood a little cup filled
with fresh primroses. While she paid her reverence to the Madonna, I
understood why she had been out seeking through the clumps of green
in the sheltered copse. Then she turned round, and bade me be
seated. The expression of her face, which all this time I was
studying, was not bad, as the stories of my last night's landlord had
led me to expect; it was a wild, stern, fierce, indomitable
countenance, seamed and scarred by agonies of solitary weeping; but
it was neither cunning nor malignant.
"My name is Bridget Fitzgerald," said she, by way of opening our
conversation.
"And your husband was Hugh Fitzgerald, of Knock Mahon, near Kildoon,
in Ireland?"
A faint light came into the dark gloom of her eyes.
The light in her eyes grew quick and red. She tried to speak, I
could see; but something rose in her throat, and choked her, and
until she could speak calmly, she would fain not speak at all before
a stranger. In a minute or so she said--"I had a daughter--one Mary
Fitzgerald,"--then her strong nature mastered her strong will, and
she cried out, with a trembling wailing cry: "Oh, man! what of her?-
-what of her?"
She rose from her seat, and came and clutched at my arm, and looked
in my eyes. There she read, as I suppose, my utter ignorance of what
had become of her child; for she went blindly back to her chair, and
sat rocking herself and softly moaning, as if I were not there; I not
daring to speak to the lone and awful woman. After a little pause,
she knelt down before the picture of Our Lady of the Holy Heart, and
spoke to her by all the fanciful and poetic names of the Litany.
"O Rose of Sharon! O Tower of David! O Star of the Sea! have ye no
comfort for my sore heart? Am I for ever to hope? Grant me at least
despair!"--and so on she went, heedless of my presence. Her prayers
grew wilder and wilder, till they seemed to me to touch on the
borders of madness and blasphemy. Almost involuntarily, I spoke as
if to stop her.
"Have you any reason to think that your daughter is dead?
She rose from her knees, and came and stood before me.
"Mary Fitzgerald is dead," said she. "I shall never see her again in
the flesh. No tongue ever told me; but I know she is dead. I have
yearned so to see her, and my heart's will is fearful and strong: it
would have drawn her to me before now, if she had been a wanderer on
the other side of the world. I wonder often it has not drawn her out
of the grave to come and stand before me, and hear me tell her how I
loved her. For, sir, we parted unfriends."
I knew nothing but the dry particulars needed for my lawyer's quest,
but I could not help feeling for the desolate woman; and she must
have read the unusual sympathy with her wistful eyes.
"Yes, sir, we did. She never knew how I loved her; and we parted
unfriends; and I fear me that I wished her voyage might not turn out
well, only meaning,--O, blessed Virgin! you know I only meant that
she should come home to her mother's arms as to the happiest place on
earth; but my wishes are terrible--their power goes beyond my
thought--and there is no hope for me, if my words brought Mary harm."
"But," I said, "you do not know that she is dead. Even now, you
hoped she might be alive. Listen to me," and I told her the tale I
have already told you, giving it all in the driest manner, for I
wanted to recall the clear sense that I felt almost sure she had
possessed in her younger days, and by keeping up her attention to
details, restrain the vague wildness of her grief.
She listened with deep attention, putting from time to time such
questions as convinced me I had to do with no common intelligence,
however dimmed and shorn by solitude and mysterious sorrow. Then she
took up her tale; and in few brief words, told me of her wanderings
abroad in vain search after her daughter; sometimes in the wake of
armies, sometimes in camp, sometimes in city. The lady, whose
waiting-woman Mary had gone to be, had died soon after the date of
her last letter home; her husband, the foreign officer, had been
serving in Hungary, whither Bridget had followed him, but too late to
find him. Vague rumours reached her that Mary had made a great
marriage: and this sting of doubt was added,--whether the mother
might not be close to her child under her new name, and even hearing
of her every day; and yet never recognizing the lost one under the
appellation she then bore. At length the thought took possession of
her, that it was possible that all this time Mary might be at home at
Coldholme, in the Trough of Bolland, in Lancashire, in England; and
home came Bridget, in that vain hope, to her desolate hearth, and
empty cottage. Here she had thought it safest to remain; if Mary was
in life, it was here she would seek for her mother.
I noted down one or two particulars out of Bridget's narrative that I
thought might be of use to me: for I was stimulated to further
search in a strange and extraordinary manner. It seemed as if it
were impressed upon me, that I must take up the quest where Bridget
had laid it down; and this for no reason that had previously
influenced me (such as my uncle's anxiety on the subject, my own
reputation as a lawyer, and so on), but from some strange power which
had taken possession of my will only that very morning, and which
forced it in the direction it chose.
"I will go," said I. "I will spare nothing in the search. Trust to
me. I will learn all that can be learnt. You shall know all that
money, or pains, or wit can discover. It is true she may be long
dead: but she may have left a child."
"A child!" she cried, as if for the first time this idea had struck
her mind. "Hear him, Blessed Virgin! he says she may have left a
child. And you have never told me, though I have prayed so for a
sign, waking or sleeping!"
"Nay," said I, "I know nothing but what you tell me. You say you
heard of her marriage."
But she caught nothing of what I said. She was praying to the Virgin
in a kind of ecstasy, which seemed to render her unconscious of my
very presence.
From Coldholme I went to Sir Philip Tempest's. The wife of the
foreign officer had been a cousin of his father's, and from him I
thought I might gain some particulars as to the existence of the
Count de la Tour d'Auvergne, and where I could find him; for I knew
questions de vive voix aid the flagging recollection, and I was
determined to lose no chance for want of trouble. But Sir Philip had
gone abroad, and it would be some time before I could receive an
answer. So I followed my uncle's advice, to whom I had mentioned how
wearied I felt, both in body and mind, by my will-o'-the-wisp search.
He immediately told me to go to Harrogate, there to await Sir
Philip's reply. I should be near to one of the places connected with
my search, Coldholme; not far from Sir Philip Tempest, in case he
returned, and I wished to ask him any further questions; and, in
conclusion, my uncle bade me try to forget all about my business for
a time.
This was far easier said than done. I have seen a child on a common
blown along by a high wind, without power of standing still and
resisting the tempestuous force. I was somewhat in the same
predicament as regarded my mental state. Something resistless seemed
to urge my thoughts on, through every possible course by which there
was a chance of attaining to my object. I did not see the sweeping
moors when I walked out: when I held a book in my hand, and read the
words, their sense did not penetrate to my brain. If I slept, I went
on with the same ideas, always flowing in the same direction. This
could not last long without having a bad effect on the body. I had
an illness, which, although I was racked with pain, was a positive
relief to me, as it compelled me to live in the present suffering,
and not in the visionary researches I had been continually making
before. My kind uncle came to nurse me; and after the immediate
danger was over, my life seemed to slip away in delicious languor for
two or three months. I did not ask--so much did I dread falling into
the old channel of thought--whether any reply had been received to my
letter to Sir Philip. I turned my whole imagination right away from
all that subject. My uncle remained with me until nigh midsummer,
and then returned to his business in London; leaving me perfectly
well, although not completely strong. I was to follow him in a
fortnight; when, as he said, "we would look over letters, and talk
about several things." I knew what this little speech alluded to,
and shrank from the train of thought it suggested, which was so
intimately connected with my first feelings of illness. However, I
had a fortnight more to roam on those invigorating Yorkshire moors.
In those days, there was one large, rambling inn, at Harrogate, close
to the Medicinal Spring; but it was already becoming too small for
the accommodation of the influx of visitors, and many lodged round
about, in the farm-houses of the district. It was so early in the
season, that I had the inn pretty much to myself; and, indeed, felt
rather like a visitor in a private house, so intimate had the
landlord and landlady become with me during my long illness. She
would chide me for being out so late on the moors, or for having been
too long without food, quite in a motherly way; while he consulted me
about vintages and wines, and taught me many a Yorkshire wrinkle
about horses. In my walks I met other strangers from time to time.
Even before my uncle had left me, I had noticed, with half-torpid
curiosity, a young lady of very striking appearance, who went about
always accompanied by an elderly companion,--hardly a gentlewoman,
but with something in her look that prepossessed me in her favour.
The younger lady always put her veil down when any one approached; so
it had been only once or twice, when I had come upon her at a sudden
turn in the path, that I had even had a glimpse at her face. I am
not sure if it was beautiful, though in after-life I grew to think it
so. But it was at this time overshadowed by a sadness that never
varied: a pale, quiet, resigned look of intense suffering, that
irresistibly attracted me,--not with love, but with a sense of
infinite compassion for one so young yet so hopelessly unhappy. The
companion wore something of the same look: quiet melancholy,
hopeless, yet resigned. I asked my landlord who they were. He said
they were called Clarke, and wished to be considered as mother and
daughter; but that, for his part, he did not believe that to be their
right name, or that there was any such relationship between them.
They had been in the neighbourhood of Harrogate for some time,
lodging in a remote farm-house. The people there would tell nothing
about them; saying that they paid handsomely, and never did any harm;
so why should they be speaking of any strange things that might
happen? That, as the landlord shrewdly observed, showed there was
something out of the common way he had heard that the elderly woman
was a cousin of the farmer's where they lodged, and so the regard
existing between relations might help to keep them quiet.
"What did he think, then, was the reason for their extreme
seclusion?" asked I.
"Nay, he could not tell,--not he. He had heard that the young lady,
for all as quiet as she seemed, played strange pranks at times." He
shook his head when I asked him for more particulars, and refused to
give them, which made me doubt if he knew any, for he was in general
a talkative and communicative man. In default of other interests,
after my uncle left, I set myself to watch these two people. I
hovered about their walks drawn towards them with a strange
fascination, which was not diminished by their evident annoyance at
so frequently meeting me. One day, I had the sudden good fortune to
be at hand when they were alarmed by the attack of a bull, which, in
those unenclosed grazing districts, was a particularly dangerous
occurrence. I have other and more important things to relate, than
to tell of the accident which gave me an opportunity of rescuing
them, it is enough to say, that this event was the beginning of an
acquaintance, reluctantly acquiesced in by them, but eagerly
prosecuted by me. I can hardly tell when intense curiosity became
merged in love, but in less than ten days after my uncle's departure
I was passionately enamoured of Mistress Lucy, as her attendant
called her; carefully--for this I noted well--avoiding any address
which appeared as if there was an equality of station between them.
I noticed also that Mrs. Clarke, the elderly woman, after her first
reluctance to allow me to pay them any attentions had been overcome,
was cheered by my evident attachment to the young girl; it seemed to
lighten her heavy burden of care, and she evidently favoured my
visits to the farmhouse where they lodged. It was not so with Lucy.
A more attractive person I never saw, in spite of her depression of
manner, and shrinking avoidance of me. I felt sure at once, that
whatever was the source of her grief, it rose from no fault of her
own. It was difficult to draw her into conversation; but when at
times, for a moment or two, I beguiled her into talk, I could see a
rare intelligence in her face, and a grave, trusting look in the
soft, gray eyes that were raised for a minute to mine. I made every
excuse I possibly could for going there. I sought wild flowers for
Lucy's sake; I planned walks for Lucy's sake; I watched the heavens
by night, in hopes that some unusual beauty of sky would justify me
in tempting Mrs. Clarke and Lucy forth upon the moors, to gaze at the
great purple dome above.
It seemed to me that Lucy was aware of my love; but that, for some
motive which I could not guess, she would fain have repelled me; but
then again I saw, or fancied I saw, that her heart spoke in my
favour, and that there was a struggle going on in her mind, which at
times (I loved so dearly) I could have begged her to spare herself,
even though the happiness of my whole life should have been the
sacrifice; for her complexion grew paler, her aspect of sorrow more
hopeless, her delicate frame yet slighter. During this period I had
written, I should say, to my uncle, to beg to be allowed to prolong
my stay at Harrogate, not giving any reason; but such was his
tenderness towards me, that in a few days I heard from him, giving me
a willing permission, and only charging me to take care of myself,
and not use too much exertion during the hot weather.
One sultry evening I drew near the farm. The windows of their
parlour were open, and I heard voices when I turned the corner of the
house, as I passed the first window (there were two windows in their
little ground-floor room). I saw Lucy distinctly; but when I had
knocked at their door--the house-door stood always ajar--she was
gone, and I saw only Mrs. Clarke, turning over the work-things lying
on the table, in a nervous and purposeless manner. I felt by
instinct that a conversation of some importance was coming on, in
which I should be expected to say what was my object in paying these
frequent visits. I was glad of the opportunity. My uncle had
several times alluded to the pleasant possibility of my bringing home
a young wife, to cheer and adorn the old house in Ormond Street. He
was rich, and I was to succeed him, and had, as I knew, a fair
reputation for so young a lawyer. So on my side I saw no obstacle.
It was true that Lucy was shrouded in mystery; her name (I was
convinced it was not Clarke), birth, parentage, and previous life
were unknown to me. But I was sure of her goodness and sweet
innocence, and although I knew that there must be something painful
to be told, to account for her mournful sadness, yet I was willing to
bear my share in her grief, whatever it might be.
Mrs. Clarke began, as if it was a relief to her to plunge into the
subject.
"We have thought, sir--at least I have thought--that you knew very
little of us, nor we of you, indeed; not enough to warrant the
intimate acquaintance we have fallen into. I beg your pardon, sir,"
she went on, nervously; "I am but a plain kind of woman, and I mean
to use no rudeness; but I must say straight out that I--we--think it
would be better for you not to come so often to see us. She is very
unprotected, and--"
"Why should I not come to see you, dear madam?" asked I, eagerly,
glad of the opportunity of explaining myself. "I come, I own,
because I have learnt to love Mistress Lucy, and wish to teach her to
love me.
"Don't, sir--neither love her, nor, for the sake of all you hold
sacred, teach her to love you! If I am too late, and you love her
already, forget her,--forget these last few weeks. O! I should
never have allowed you to come!" she went on passionately; "but what
am I to do? We are forsaken by all, except the great God, and even
He permits a strange and evil power to afflict us--what am I to do!
Where is it to end?" She wrung her hands in her distress; then she
turned to me: "Go away, sir! go away, before you learn to care any
more for her. I ask it for your own sake--I implore! You have been
good and kind to us, and we shall always recollect you with
gratitude; but go away now, and never come back to cross our fatal
path!"
"Indeed, madam," said I, "I shall do no such thing. You urge it for
my own sake. I have no fear, so urged--nor wish, except to hear
more--all. I cannot have seen Mistress Lucy in all the intimacy of
this last fortnight, without acknowledging her goodness and
innocence; and without seeing--pardon me, madam--that for some reason
you are two very lonely women, in some mysterious sorrow and
distress. Now, though I am not powerful myself, yet I have friends
who are so wise and kind that they may be said to possess power.
Tell me some particulars. Why are you in grief--what is your secret-
-why are you here? I declare solemnly that nothing you have said has
daunted me in my wish to become Lucy's husband; nor will I shrink
from any difficulty that, as such an aspirant, I may have to
encounter. You say you are friendless--why cast away an honest
friend? I will tell you of people to whom you may write, and who
will answer any questions as to my character and prospects. I do not
shun inquiry."
She shook her head again. "You had better go away, sir. You know
nothing about us."
"I know your names," said I, "and I have heard you allude to the part
of the country from which you came, which I happen to know as a wild
and lonely place. There are so few people living in it that, if I
chose to go there, I could easily ascertain all about you; but I
would rather hear it from yourself." You see I wanted to pique her
into telling me something definite.
"You do not know our true names, sir," said she, hastily.
"Well, I may have conjectured as much. But tell me, then, I conjure
you. Give me your reasons for distrusting my willingness to stand by
what I have said with regard to Mistress Lucy."
"Oh, what can I do?" exclaimed she. "If I am turning away a true
friend, as he says?--Stay!" coming to a sudden decision--" I will
tell you something--I cannot tell you all--you would not believe it.
But, perhaps, I can tell you enough to prevent your going on in your
hopeless attachment. I am not Lucy's mother."
"I do not even know whether she is the legitimate or illegitimate
child of her father. But he is cruelly turned against her; and her
mother is long dead; and for a terrible reason, she has no other
creature to keep constant to her but me. She--only two years ago--
such a darling and such a pride in her father's house! Why, sir,
there is a mystery that might happen in connection with her any
moment; and then you would go away like all the rest; and, when you
next heard her name, you would loathe her. Others, who have loved
her longer, have done so before now. My poor child! whom neither God
nor man has mercy upon--or, surely, she would die!"
The good woman was stopped by her crying. I confess, I was a little
stunned by her last words; but only for a moment. At any rate, till
I knew definitely what was this mysterious stain upon one so simple
and pure, as Lucy seemed, I would not desert her, and so I said; and
she made me answer:-
"If you are daring in your heart to think harm of my child, sir,
after knowing her as you have done, you are no good man yourself; but
I am so foolish and helpless in my great sorrow, that I would fain
hope to find a friend in you. I cannot help trusting that, although
you may no longer feel toward her as a lover, you will have pity upon
us; and perhaps, by your learning you can tell us where to go for
aid."
"I implore you to tell me what this mystery is," I cried, almost
maddened by this suspense.
"I cannot," said she, solemnly. "I am under a deep vow of secrecy.
If you are to be told, it must be by her." She left the room, and I
remained to ponder over this strange interview. I mechanically
turned over the few books, and with eyes that saw nothing at the
time, examined the tokens of Lucy's frequent presence in that room.
When I got home at night, I remembered how all these trifles spoke of
a pure and tender heart and innocent life. Mistress Clarke returned;
she had been crying sadly.
"Yes," said she, "it is as I feared: she loves you so much that she
is willing to run the fearful risk of telling you all herself--she
acknowledges it is but a poor chance; but your sympathy will be a
balm, if you give it. To-morrow, come here at ten in the morning;
and, as you hope for pity in your hour of agony, repress all show of
fear or repugnance you may feel towards one so grievously afflicted."
I half smiled. "Have no fear," I said. It seemed too absurd to
imagine my feeling dislike to Lucy.
"Her father loved her well," said she, gravely, "yet he drove her out
like some monstrous thing."
Just at this moment came a peal of ringing laughter from the garden.
It was Lucy's voice; it sounded as if she were standing just on one
side of the open casement--and as though she were suddenly stirred to
merriment--merriment verging on boisterousness, by the doings or
sayings of some other person. I can scarcely say why, but the sound
jarred on me inexpressibly. She knew the subject of our
conversation, and must have been at least aware of the state of
agitation her friend was in; she herself usually so gentle and quiet.
I half rose to go to the window, and satisfy my instinctive curiosity
as to what had provoked this burst of, ill-timed laughter; but Mrs.
Clarke threw her whole weight and power upon the hand with which she
pressed and kept me down.
"For God's sake!" she said, white and trembling all over, "sit still;
be quiet. Oh! be patient. To-morrow you will know all. Leave us,
for we are all sorely afflicted. Do not seek to know more about us."
Again that laugh--so musical in sound, yet so discordant to my heart.
She held me tight--tighter; without positive violence I could not
have risen. I was sitting with my back to the window, but I felt a
shadow pass between the sun's warmth and me, and a strange shudder
ran through my frame. In a minute or two she released me.
"Go," repeated she. "Be warned, I ask you once more. I do not think
you can stand this knowledge that you seek. If I had had my own way,
Lucy should never have yielded, and promised to tell you all. Who
knows what may come of it?"
"I am firm in my wish to know all. I return at ten tomorrow morning,
and then expect to see Mistress Lucy herself."
I turned away; having my own suspicions, I confess, as to Mistress
Clarke's sanity.
Conjectures as to the meaning of her hints, and uncomfortable
thoughts connected with that strange laughter, filled my mind. I
could hardly sleep. I rose early; and long before the hour I had
appointed, I was on the path over the common that led to the old
farm-house where they lodged. I suppose that Lucy had passed no
better a night than I; for there she was also, slowly pacing with her
even step, her eyes bent down, her whole look most saintly and pure.
She started when I came close to her, and grew paler as I reminded
her of my appointment, and spoke with something of the impatience of
obstacles that, seeing her once more, had called up afresh in my
mind. All strange and terrible hints, and giddy merriment were
forgotten. My heart gave forth words of fire, and my tongue uttered
them. Her colour went and came, as she listened; but, when I had
ended my passionate speeches, she lifted her soft eyes to me, and
said -
"But you know that you have something to learn about me yet. I only
want to say this: I shall not think less of you--less well of you, I
mean--if you, too, fall away from me when you know all. Stop!" said
she, as if fearing another burst of mad words. "Listen to me. My
father is a man of great wealth. I never knew my mother; she must
have died when I was very young. When first I remember anything, I
was living in a great, lonely house, with my dear and faithful
Mistress Clarke. My father, even, was not there; he was--he is--a
soldier, and his duties lie aboard. But he came from time to time,
and every time I think he loved me more and more. He brought me
rarities from foreign lands, which prove to me now how much he must
have thought of me during his absences. I can sit down and measure
the depth of his lost love now, by such standards as these. I never
thought whether he loved me or not, then; it was so natural, that it
was like the air I breathed. Yet he was an angry man at times, even
then; but never with me. He was very reckless, too; and, once or
twice, I heard a whisper among the servants that a doom was over him,
and that he knew it, and tried to drown his knowledge in wild
activity, and even sometimes, sir, in wine. So I grew up in this
grand mansion, in that lonely place. Everything around me seemed at
my disposal, and I think every one loved me; I am sure I loved them.
Till about two years ago--I remember it well--my father had come to
England, to us; and he seemed so proud and so pleased with me and all
I had done. And one day his tongue seemed loosened with wine, and he
told me much that I had not known till then,--how dearly he had loved
my mother, yet how his wilful usage had caused her death; and then he
went on to say how he loved me better than any creature on earth, and
how, some day, he hoped to take me to foreign places, for that he
could hardly bear these long absences from his only child. Then he
seemed to change suddenly, and said, in a strange, wild way, that I
was not to believe what he said; that there was many a thing he loved
better--his horse--his dog--I know not what.
"And 'twas only the next morning that, when I came into his room to
ask his blessing as was my wont, he received me with fierce and angry
words. 'Why had I,' so he asked, 'been delighting myself in such
wanton mischief--dancing over the tender plants in the flower-beds,
all set with the famous Dutch bulbs he had brought from Holland?' I
had never been out of doors that morning, sir, and I could not
conceive what he meant, and so I said; and then he swore at me for a
liar, and said I was of no true blood, for he had seen me doing all
that mischief himself--with his own eyes. What could I say? He
would not listen to me, and even my tears seemed only to irritate
him. That day was the beginning of my great sorrows. Not long
after, he reproached me for my undue familiarity--all unbecoming a
gentlewoman--with his grooms. I had been in the stable-yard,
laughing and talking, he said. Now, sir, I am something of a coward
by nature, and I had always dreaded horses; be-sides that, my
father's servants--those whom he brought with him from foreign parts-
-were wild fellows, whom I had always avoided, and to whom I had
never spoken, except as a lady must needs from time to time speak to
her father's people. Yet my father called me by names of which I
hardly know the meaning, but my heart told me they were such as shame
any modest woman; and from that day he turned quite against me;--nay,
sir, not many weeks after that, he came in with a riding-whip in his
hand; and, accusing me harshly of evil doings, of which I knew no
more than you, sir, he was about to strike me, and I, all in
bewildering tears, was ready to take his stripes as great kindness
compared to his harder words, when suddenly he stopped his arm mid-
way, gasped and staggered, crying out, 'The curse--the curse!' I
looked up in terror. In the great mirror opposite I saw myself, and
right behind, another wicked, fearful self, so like me that my soul
seemed to quiver within me, as though not knowing to which similitude
of body it belonged. My father saw my double at the same moment,
either in its dreadful reality, whatever that might be, or in the
scarcely less terrible reflection in the mirror; but what came of it
at that moment I cannot say, for I suddenly swooned away; and when I
came to myself I was lying in my bed, and my faithful Clarke sitting
by me. I was in my bed for days; and even while I lay there my
double was seen by all, flitting about the house and gardens, always
about some mischievous or detestable work. What wonder that every
one shrank from me in dread--that my father drove me forth at length,
when the disgrace of which I was the cause was past his patience to
bear. Mistress Clarke came with me; and here we try to live such a
life of piety and prayer as may in time set me free from the curse."
All the time she had been speaking, I had been weighing her story in
my mind. I had hitherto put cases of witchcraft on one side, as mere
superstitions; and my uncle and I had had many an argument, he
supporting himself by the opinion of his good friend Sir Matthew
Hale. Yet this sounded like the tale of one bewitched; or was it
merely the effect of a life of extreme seclusion telling on the
nerves of a sensitive girl? My scepticism inclined me to the latter
belief, and when she paused I said:
"I fancy that some physician could have disabused your father of his
belief in visions--"
Just at that instant, standing as I was opposite to her in the full
and perfect morning light, I saw behind her another figure--a ghastly
resemblance, complete in likeness, so far as form and feature and
minutest touch of dress could go, but with a loathsome demon soul
looking out of the gray eyes, that were in turns mocking and
voluptuous. My heart stood still within me; every hair rose up
erect; my flesh crept with horror. I could not see the grave and
tender Lucy--my eyes were fascinated by the creature beyond. I know
not why, but I put out my hand to clutch it; I grasped nothing but
empty air, and my whole blood curdled to ice. For a moment I could
not see; then my sight came back, and I saw Lucy standing before me,
alone, deathly pale, and, I could have fancied, almost, shrunk in
size.
"It has been near me?" she said, as if asking a question.
The sound seemed taken out of her voice; it was husky as the notes on
an old harpsichord when the strings have ceased to vibrate. She read
her answer in my face, I suppose, for I could not speak. Her look
was one of intense fear, but that died away into an aspect of most
humble patience. At length she seemed to force herself to face
behind and around her: she saw the purple moors, the blue distant
hills, quivering in the sunlight, but nothing else.
I took her by the hand, and led her silently through the budding
heather--we dared not speak; for we could not tell but that the dread
creature was listening, although unseen,--but that it might appear
and push us asunder. I never loved her more fondly than now when--
and that was the unspeakable misery--the idea of her was becoming so
inextricably blended with the shuddering thought of it. She seemed
to understand what I must be feeling. She let go my hand, which she
had kept clasped until then, when we reached the garden gate, and
went forwards to meet her anxious friend, who was standing by the
window looking for her. I could not enter the house: I needed
silence, society, leisure, change--I knew not what--to shake off the
sensation of that creature's presence. Yet I lingered about the
garden--I hardly know why; I partly suppose, because I feared to
encounter the resemblance again on the solitary common, where it had
vanished, and partly from a feeling of inexpressible compassion for
Lucy. In a few minutes Mistress Clarke came forth and joined me. We
walked some paces in silence.
"And you shrink from us, now," she said, with a hopelessness which
stirred up all that was brave or good in me.
"Not a whit," said I. "Human flesh shrinks from encounter with the
powers of darkness: and, for some reason unknown to me, the pure and
holy Lucy is their victim."
"The sins of the fathers shall be visited upon the children," she
said.
"Who is her father?" asked I. "Knowing as much as I do, I may surely
know more--know all. Tell me, I entreat you, madam, all that you can
conjecture respecting this demoniac persecution of one so good."
"I will; but not now. I must go to Lucy now. Come this afternoon, I
will see you alone; and oh, sir! I will trust that you may yet find
some way to help us in our sore trouble!"
I was miserably exhausted by the swooning affright which had taken
possession of me. When I reached the inn, I staggered in like one
overcome by wine. I went to my own private room. It was some time
before I saw that the weekly post had come in, and brought me my
letters. There was one from my uncle, one from my home in
Devonshire, and one, re-directed over the first address, sealed with
a great coat of arms, It was from Sir Philip Tempest: my letter of
inquiry respecting Mary Fitzgerald had reached him at Liege, where it
so happened that the Count de la Tour d'Auvergne was quartered at the
very time. He remembered his wife's beautiful attendant; she had had
high words with the deceased countess, respecting her intercourse
with an English gentleman of good standing, who was also in the
foreign service. The countess augured evil of his intentions; while
Mary, proud and vehement, asserted that he would soon marry her, and
resented her mistress's warnings as an insult. The consequence was,
that she had left Madame de la Tour d'Auvergne's service, and, as the
Count believed, had gone to live with the Englishman; whether he had
married her, or not, he could not say. "But," added Sir Philip
Tempest, you may easily hear what particulars you wish to know
respecting Mary Fitzgerald from the Englishman himself, if, as I
suspect, he is no other than my neighbour and former acquaintance,
Mr. Gisborne, of Skipford Hall, in the West Riding. I am led to the
belief that he is no other, by several small particulars, none of
which are in themselves conclusive, but which, taken together,
furnish a mass of presumptive evidence. As far as I could make out
from the Count's foreign pronunciation, Gisborne was the name of the
Englishman: I know that Gisborne of Skipford was abroad and in the
foreign service at that time--he was a likely fellow enough for such
an exploit, and, above all, certain expressions recur to my mind
which he used in reference to old Bridget Fitzgerald, of Coldholme,
whom he once encountered while staying with me at Starkey Manor-
house. I remember that the meeting seemed to have produced some
extraordinary effect upon his mind, as though he had suddenly
discovered some connection which she might have had with his previous
life. I beg you to let me know if I can be of any further service to
you. Your uncle once rendered me a good turn, and I will gladly
repay it, so far as in me lies, to his nephew."
I was now apparently close on the discovery which I had striven so
many months to attain. But success had lost its zest. I put my
letters down, and seemed to forget them all in thinking of the
morning I had passed that very day. Nothing was real but the unreal
presence, which had come like an evil blast across my bodily eyes,
and burnt itself down upon my brain. Dinner came, and went away
untouched. Early in the afternoon I walked to the farm-house. I
found Mistress Clarke alone, and I was glad and relieved. She was
evidently prepared to tell me all I might wish to hear.
"You asked me for Mistress Lucy's true name; it is Gisborne," she
began.
"Not Gisborne of Skipford?" I exclaimed, breathless with
anticipation.
"The same," said she, quietly, not regarding my manner. "Her father
is a man of note; although, being a Roman Catholic, he cannot take
that rank in this country to which his station entitles him. The
consequence is that he lives much abroad--has been a soldier, I am
told."
She shook her head. "I never knew her," said she. "Lucy was about
three years old when I was engaged to take charge of her. Her mother
was dead."
"But you know her name?--you can tell if it was Mary Fitzgerald?"
She looked astonished. "That was her name. But, sir, how came you
to be so well acquainted with it? It was a mystery to the whole
household at Skipford Court. She was some beautiful young woman whom
he lured away from her protectors while he was abroad. I have heard
said he practised some terrible deceit upon her, and when she came to
know it, she was neither to have nor to hold, but rushed off from his
very arms, and threw herself into a rapid stream and was drowned. It
stung him deep with remorse, but I used to think the remembrance of
the mother's cruel death made him love the child yet dearer."
I told her, as briefly as might be, of my researches after the
descendant and heir of the Fitzgeralds of Kildoon, and added--
something of my old lawyer spirit returning into me for the moment--
that I had no doubt but that we should prove Lucy to be by right
possessed of large estates in Ireland.
No flush came over her gray face; no light into her eyes. "And what
is all the wealth in the whole world to that poor girl?" she said.
"It will not free her from the ghastly bewitchment which persecutes
her. As for money, what a pitiful thing it is! it cannot touch her."
"No more can the Evil Creature harm her," I said. "Her holy nature
dwells apart, and cannot be defiled or stained by all the devilish
arts in the whole world."
"True! but it is a cruel fate to know that all shrink from her,
sooner or later, as from one possessed--accursed."
"They came from servants, who would fain account for every thing.
They say that, many years ago, Mr. Gisborne killed a dog belonging to
an old witch at Coldholme; that she cursed, with a dreadful and
mysterious curse, the creature, whatever it might be, that he should
love best; and that it struck so deeply into his heart that for years
he kept himself aloof from any temptation to love aught. But who
could help loving Lucy?"
"Yes--they called her Bridget: they said he would never go near the
spot again for terror of her. Yet he was a brave man!"
"Listen," said I, taking hold of her arm, the better to arrest her
full attention: "if what I suspect holds true, that man stole
Bridget's only child--the very Mary Fitzgerald who was Lucy's mother;
if so, Bridget cursed him in ignorance of the deeper wrong he had
done her. To this hour she yearns after her lost child, and
questions the saints whether she be living or not. The roots of that
curse lie deeper than she knows: she unwittingly banned him for a
deeper guilt than that of killing a dumb beast. The sins of the
fathers are indeed visited upon the children."
"But," said Mistress Clarke, eagerly, "she would never let evil rest
on her own grandchild? Surely, sir, if what you say be true, there
are hopes for Lucy. Let us go--go at once, and tell this fearful
woman all that you suspect, and beseech her to take off the spell she
has put upon her innocent grandchild."
It seemed to me, indeed, that something like this was the best course
we could pursue. But first it was necessary to ascertain more than
what mere rumour or careless hearsay could tell. My thoughts turned
to my uncle--he could advise me wisely--he ought to know all. I
resolved to go to him without delay; but I did not choose to tell
Mistress Clarke of all the visionary plans that flitted through my
mind. I simply declared my intention of proceeding straight to
London on Lucy's affairs. I bade her believe that my interest on the
young lady's behalf was greater than ever, and that my whole time
should be given up to her cause. I saw that Mistress Clarke
distrusted me, because my mind was too full of thoughts for my words
to flow freely. She sighed and shook her head, and said, "Well, it
is all right!" in such a tone that it was an implied reproach. But I
was firm and constant in my heart, and I took confidence from that.
I rode to London. I rode long days drawn out into the lovely summer
nights: I could not rest. I reached London. I told my uncle all,
though in the stir of the great city the horror had faded away, and I
could hardly imagine that he would believe the account I gave him of
the fearful double of Lucy which I had seen on the lonely moor-side.
But my uncle had lived many years, and learnt many things; and, in
the deep secrets of family history that had been confided to him, he
had heard of cases of innocent people bewitched and taken possession
of by evil spirits yet more fearful than Lucy's. For, as he said, to
judge from all I told him, that resemblance had no power over her--
she was too pure and good to be tainted by its evil, haunting
presence. It had, in all probability, so my uncle conceived, tried
to suggest wicked thoughts and to tempt to wicked actions but she, in
her saintly maidenhood, had passed on undefiled by evil thought or
deed. It could not touch her soul: but true, it set her apart from
all sweet love or common human intercourse. My uncle threw himself
with an energy more like six-and-twenty than sixty into the
consideration of the whole case. He undertook the proving Lucy's
descent, and volunteered to go and find out Mr. Gisborne, and obtain,
firstly, the legal proofs of her descent from the Fitzgeralds of
Kildoon, and, secondly, to try and hear all that he could respecting
the working of the curse, and whether any and what means had been
taken to exorcise that terrible appearance. For he told me of
instances where, by prayers and long fasting, the evil possessor had
been driven forth with howling and many cries from the body which it
had come to inhabit; he spoke of those strange New England cases
which had happened not so long before; of Mr. Defoe, who had written
a book, wherein he had named many modes of subduing apparitions, and
sending them back whence they came; and, lastly, he spoke low of
dreadful ways of compelling witches to undo their witchcraft. But I
could not endure to hear of those tortures and burnings. I said that
Bridget was rather a wild and savage woman than a malignant witch;
and, above all, that Lucy was of her kith and kin; and that, in
putting her to the trial, by water or by fire, we should be
torturing--it might be to the death--the ancestress of her we sought
to redeem.
My uncle thought awhile, and then said, that in this last matter I
was right--at any rate, it should not be tried, with his consent,
till all other modes of remedy had failed; and he assented to my
proposal that I should go myself and see Bridget, and tell her all.
In accordance with this, I went down once more to the wayside inn
near Coldholme. It was late at night when I arrived there; and,
while I supped, I inquired of the landlord more particulars as to
Bridget's ways. Solitary and savage had been her life for many
years. Wild and despotic were her words and manner to those few
people who came across her path. The country-folk did her imperious
bidding, because they feared to disobey. If they pleased her, they
prospered; if, on the contrary, they neglected or traversed her
behests, misfortune, small or great, fell on them and theirs. It was
not detestation so much as an indefinable terror that she excited.
In the morning I went to see her. She was standing on the green
outside her cottage, and received me with the sullen grandeur of a
throneless queen. I read in her face that she recognized me, and
that I was not unwelcome; but she stood silent till I had opened my
errand.
"I have news of your daughter," said I, resolved to speak straight to
all that I knew she felt of love, and not to spare her. "She is
dead!"
The stern figure scarcely trembled, but her hand sought the support
of the door-post.
"I knew that she was dead," said she, deep and low, and then was
silent for an instant. "My tears that should have flowed for her
were burnt up long years ago. Young man, tell me about her."
"Not yet," said I, having a strange power given me of confronting
one, whom, nevertheless, in my secret soul I dreaded.
"You had once a little dog," I continued. The words called out in
her more show of emotion than the intelligence of her daughter's
death. She broke in upon my speech:-
"I had! It was hers--the last thing I had of hers--and it was shot
for wantonness! It died in my arms. The man who killed that dog
rues it to this day. For that dumb beast's blood, his best-beloved
stands accursed."
Her eyes distended, as if she were in a trance and saw the working of
her curse. Again I spoke:-
"O, woman!" I said, "that best-beloved, standing accursed before men,
is your dead daughter's child."
The life, the energy, the passion, came back to the eyes with which
she pierced through me, to see if I spoke truth; then, without
another question or word, she threw herself on the ground with
fearful vehemence, and clutched at the innocent daisies with
convulsed hands.
"Bone of my bone! flesh of my flesh! have I cursed thee--and art thou
accursed?"
So she moaned, as she lay prostrate in her great agony. I stood
aghast at my own work. She did not hear my broken sentences; she
asked no more, but the dumb confirmation which my sad looks had given
that one fact, that her curse rested on her own daughter's child.
The fear grew on me lest she should die in her strife of body and
soul; and then might not Lucy remain under the spell as long as she
lived?
Even at this moment, I saw Lucy coming through the woodland path that
led to Bridget's cottage; Mistress Clarke was with her: I felt at my
heart that it was she, by the balmy peace which the look of her sent
over me, as she slowly advanced, a glad surprise shining out of her
soft quiet eyes. That was as her gaze met mine. As her looks fell
on the woman lying stiff, convulsed on the earth, they became full of
tender pity; and she came forward to try and lift her up. Seating
herself on the turf, she took Bridget's head into her lap; and, with
gentle touches, she arranged the dishevelled gray hair streaming
thick and wild from beneath her mutch.
At her desire we sought for water; but when we returned, Bridget had
recovered her wandering senses, and was kneeling with clasped hands
before Lucy, gazing at that sweet sad face as though her troubled
nature drank in health and peace from every moment's contemplation.
A faint tinge on Lucy's pale cheeks showed me that she was aware of
our return; otherwise it appeared as if she was conscious of her
influence for good over the passionate and troubled woman kneeling
before her, and would not willingly avert her grave and loving eyes
from that wrinkled and careworn countenance.
Suddenly--in the twinkling of an eye--the creature appeared, there,
behind Lucy; fearfully the same as to outward semblance, but kneeling
exactly as Bridget knelt, and clasping her hands in jesting mimicry
as Bridget clasped hers in her ecstasy that was deepening into a
prayer. Mistress Clarke cried out--Bridget arose slowly, her gaze
fixed on the creature beyond: drawing her breath with a hissing
sound, never moving her terrible eyes, that were steady as stone, she
made a dart at the phantom, and caught, as I had done, a mere handful
of empty air. We saw no more of the creature--it vanished as
suddenly as it came, but Bridget looked slowly on, as if watching
some receding form. Lucy sat still, white, trembling, drooping--I
think she would have swooned if I had not been there to uphold her.
While I was attending to her, Bridget passed us, without a word to
any one, and, entering her cottage, she barred herself in, and left
us without.
All our endeavours were now directed to get Lucy back to the house
where she had tarried the night before. Mistress Clarke told me
that, not hearing from me (some letter must have miscarried), she had
grown impatient and despairing, and had urged Lucy to the enterprise
of coming to seek her grandmother; not telling her, indeed, of the
dread reputation she possessed, or how we suspected her of having so
fearfully blighted that innocent girl; but, at the same time, hoping
much from the mysterious stirring of blood, which Mistress Clarke
trusted in for the removal of the curse. They had come, by a
different route from that which I had taken, to a village inn not far
from Coldholme, only the night before. This was the first interview
between ancestress and descendant.
All through the sultry noon I wandered along the tangled brush-wood
of the old neglected forest, thinking where to turn for remedy in a
matter so complicated and mysterious. Meeting a countryman, I asked
my way to the nearest clergyman, and went, hoping to obtain some
counsel from him. But he proved to be a coarse and common-minded
man, giving no time or attention to the intricacies of a case, but
dashing out a strong opinion involving immediate action. For
instance, as soon as I named Bridget Fitzgerald, he exclaimed:-
"The Coldholme witch! the Irish papist! I'd have had her ducked long
since but for that other papist, Sir Philip Tempest. He has had to
threaten honest folk about here over and over again, or they'd have
had her up before the justices for her black doings. And it's the
law of the land that witches should be burnt! Ay, and of Scripture,
too, sir! Yet you see a papist, if he's a rich squire, can overrule
both law and Scripture. I'd carry a faggot myself to rid the country
of her!"
Such a one could give me no help. I rather drew back what I had
already said; and tried to make the parson forget it, by treating him
to several pots of beer, in the village inn, to which we had
adjourned for our conference at his suggestion. I left him as soon
as I could, and returned to Coldholme, shaping my way past deserted
Starkey Manor-house, and coming upon it by the back. At that side
were the oblong remains of the old moat, the waters of which lay
placid and motionless under the crimson rays of the setting sun; with
the forest-trees lying straight along each side, and their deep-green
foliage mirrored to blackness in the burnished surface of the moat
below--and the broken sun-dial at the end nearest the hall--and the
heron, standing on one leg at the water's edge, lazily looking down
for fish--the lonely and desolate house scarce needed the broken
windows, the weeds on the door-sill, the broken shutter softly
flapping to and fro in the twilight breeze, to fill up the picture of
desertion and decay. I lingered about the place until the growing
darkness warned me on. And then I passed along the path, cut by the
orders of the last lady of Starkey Manor-House, that led me to
Bridget's cottage. I resolved at once to see her; and, in spite of
closed doors--it might be of resolved will--she should see me. So I
knocked at her door, gently, loudly, fiercely. I shook it so
vehemently that a length the old hinges gave way, and with a crash it
fell inwards, leaving me suddenly face to face with Bridget--I, red,
heated, agitated with my so long baffled efforts--she, stiff as any
stone, standing right facing me, her eyes dilated with terror, her
ashen lips trembling, but her body motionless. In her hands she held
her crucifix, as if by that holy symbol she sought to oppose my
entrance. At sight of me, her whole frame relaxed, and she sank back
upon a chair. Some mighty tension had given way. Still her eyes
looked fearfully into the gloom of the outer air, made more opaque by
the glimmer of the lamp inside, which she had placed before the
picture of the Virgin.
"Yes," replied she, still terror stricken. "But she--that creature--
has been looking in upon me through that window all day long. I
closed it up with my shawl; and then I saw her feet below the door,
as long as it was light, and I knew she heard my very breathing--nay,
worse, my very prayers; and I could not pray, for her listening
choked the words ere they rose to my lips. Tell me, who is she?--
what means that double girl I saw this morning? One had a look of my
dead Mary; but the other curdled my blood, and yet it was the same!"
She had taken hold of my arm, as if to secure herself some human
companionship. She shook all over with the slight, never-ceasing
tremor of intense terror. I told her my tale as I have told it you,
sparing none of the details.
How Mistress Clarke had informed me that the resemblance had driven
Lucy forth from her father's house--how I had disbelieved, until,
with mine own eyes, I had seen another Lucy standing behind my Lucy,
the same in form and feature, but with the demon-soul looking out of
the eyes. I told her all, I say, believing that she--whose curse was
working so upon the life of her innocent grandchild--was the only
person who could find the remedy and the redemption. When I had
done, she sat silent for many minutes.
"I do, in spite of the fearful working of the curse--I love her. Yet
I shrink from her ever since that day on the moor-side. And men must
shrink from one so accompanied; friends and lovers must stand afar
off. Oh, Bridget Fitzgerald! loosen the curse! Set her free!"
I eagerly caught at the idea that her presence was needed, in order
that, by some strange prayer or exorcism, the spell might be
reversed.
"I will go and bring her to you," I exclaimed. Bridget tightened her
hold upon my arm.
"Not so," said she, in a low, hoarse voice. "It would kill me to see
her again as I saw her this morning. And I must live till I have
worked my work. Leave me!" said she, suddenly, and again taking up
the cross. "I defy the demon I have called up. Leave me to wrestle
with it!"
She stood up, as if in an ecstasy of inspiration, from which all fear
was banished. I lingered--why I can hardly tell--until once more she
bade me begone. As I went along the forest way, I looked back, and
saw her planting the cross in the empty threshold, where the door had
been.
The next morning Lucy and I went to seek her, to bid her join her
prayers with ours. The cottage stood open and wide to our gaze. No
human being was there: the cross remained on the threshold, but
Bridget was gone.