Chapter VI. The Episode of the Letter with the Basingstoke Postmark
I have a vast respect for my grandfather. He was a man of
forethought. He left me a modest little income of seven hundred
a-year, well invested. Now, seven hundred a-year is not exactly
wealth; but it is an unobtrusive competence; it permits a bachelor
to move about the world and choose at will his own profession.
I chose medicine; but I was not wholly dependent upon it. So I
honoured my grandfather's wise disposition of his worldly goods;
though, oddly enough, my cousin Tom (to whom he left his watch and
five hundred pounds) speaks most disrespectfully of his character
and intellect.
Thanks to my grandfather's silken-sailed barque, therefore, when I
found myself practically dismissed from Nathaniel's I was not
thrown on my beam-ends, as most young men in my position would have
been; I had time and opportunity for the favourite pastime of
looking about me. Of course, had I chosen, I might have fought the
case to the bitter end against Sebastian; he could not dismiss me--
that lay with the committee. But I hardly cared to fight. In the
first place, though I had found him out as a man, I still respected
him as a great teacher; and in the second place (which is always
more important), I wanted to find and follow Hilda.
To be sure, Hilda, in that enigmatic letter of hers, had implored
me not to seek her out; but I think you will admit there is one
request which no man can grant to the girl he loves--and that is
the request to keep away from her. If Hilda did not want me, I
wanted Hilda; and, being a man, I meant to find her.
My chances of discovering her whereabouts, however, I had to
confess to myself (when it came to the point) were extremely
slender. She had vanished from my horizon, melted into space. My
sole hint of a clue consisted in the fact that the letter she sent
me had been posted at Basingstoke. Here, then, was my problem:
given an envelope with the Basingstoke postmark, to find in what
part of Europe, Asia, Africa, or America the writer of it might be
discovered. It opened up a fine field for speculation.
When I set out to face this broad puzzle, my first idea was: "I
must ask Hilda." In all circumstances of difficulty, I had grown
accustomed to submitting my doubts and surmises to her acute
intelligence; and her instinct almost always supplied the right
solution. But now Hilda was gone; it was Hilda herself I wished to
track through the labyrinth of the world. I could expect no
assistance in tracking her from Hilda.
"Let me think," I said to myself, over a reflective pipe, with feet
poised on the fender. "How would Hilda herself have approached
this problem? Imagine I'm Hilda. I must try to strike a trail by
applying her own methods to her own character. She would have
attacked the question, no doubt,"--here I eyed my pipe wisely,--
"from the psychological side. She would have asked herself"--I
stroked my chin--"what such a temperament as hers was likely to do
under such-and-such circumstances. And she would have answered it
aright. But then"--I puffed away once or twice--"she is Hilda."
When I came to reconnoitre the matter in this light, I became at
once aware how great a gulf separated the clumsy male intelligence
from the immediate and almost unerring intuitions of a clever
woman. I am considered no fool; in my own profession, I may
venture to say, I was Sebastian's favourite pupil. Yet, though I
asked myself over and over again where Hilda would be likely to go--
Canada, China, Australia--as the outcome of her character, in
these given conditions, I got no answer. I stared at the fire and
reflected. I smoked two successive pipes, and shook out the ashes.
"Let me consider how Hilda's temperament would work," I said,
looking sagacious. I said it several times--but there I stuck. I
went no further. The solution would not come. I felt that in
order to play Hilda's part, it was necessary first to have Hilda's
head-piece. Not every man can bend the bow of Ulysses.
As I turned the problem over in my mind, however, one phrase at
last came back to me--a phrase which Hilda herself had let fall
when we were debating a very similar point about poor Hugo Le Geyt:
"If I were in his place, what do you think I would do?--why, hide
myself at once in the greenest recesses of our Carnarvonshire
mountains."
She must have gone to Wales, then. I had her own authority for
saying so. . . . And yet--Wales? Wales? I pulled myself up with
a jerk. In that case, how did she come to be passing by
Basingstoke?
Was the postmark a blind? Had she hired someone to take the letter
somewhere for her, on purpose to put me off on a false track? I
could hardly think so. Besides, the time was against it. I saw
Hilda at Nathaniel's in the morning; the very same evening I
received the envelope with the Basingstoke postmark.
"If I were in his place." Yes, true; but, now I come to think on
it, were the positions really parallel? Hilda was not flying for
her life from justice; she was only endeavouring to escape
Sebastian--and myself. The instances she had quoted of the
mountaineer's curious homing instinct--the wild yearning he feels
at moments of great straits to bury himself among the nooks of his
native hills--were they not all instances of murderers pursued by
the police? It was abject terror that drove these men to their
burrows. But Hilda was not a murderer; she was not dogged by
remorse, despair, or the myrmidons of the law; it was murder she
was avoiding, not the punishment of murder. That made, of course,
an obvious difference. "Irrevocably far from London," she said.
Wales is a suburb. I gave up the idea that it was likely to prove
her place of refuge from the two men she was bent on escaping.
Hong-Kong, after all, seemed more probable than Llanberis.
That first failure gave me a clue, however, as to the best way of
applying Hilda's own methods. "What would such a person do under
the circumstances?" that was her way of putting the question.
Clearly, then, I must first decide what were the circumstances.
Was Sebastian speaking the truth? Was Hilda Wade, or was she not,
the daughter of the supposed murderer, Dr. Yorke-Bannerman?
I looked up as much of the case as I could, in unobtrusive ways,
among the old law-reports, and found that the barrister who had had
charge of the defence was my father's old friend, Mr. Horace
Mayfield, a man of elegant tastes, and the means to gratify them.
I went to call on him on Sunday evening at his artistically
luxurious house in Onslow Gardens. A sedate footman answered the
bell. Fortunately, Mr. Mayfield was at home, and, what is rarer,
disengaged. You do not always find a successful Q.C. at his ease
among his books, beneath the electric light, ready to give up a
vacant hour to friendly colloquy.
"Remember Yorke-Bannerman's case?" he said, a huge smile breaking
slowly like a wave over his genial fat face--Horace Mayfield
resembles a great good-humoured toad, with bland manners and a
capacious double chin--"I should just say I did! Bless my soul--
why, yes," he beamed, "I was Yorke-Bannerman's counsel. Excellent
fellow, Yorke-Bannerman--most unfortunate end, though--precious
clever chap, too! Had an astounding memory. Recollected every
symptom of every patient he ever attended. And such an eye!
Diagnosis? It was clairvoyance! A gift--no less. Knew what was
the matter with you the moment he looked at you."
That sounded like Hilda. The same surprising power of recalling
facts; the same keen faculty for interpreting character or the
signs of feeling. "He poisoned somebody, I believe," I murmured,
casually. "An uncle of his, or something."
Mayfield's great squat face wrinkled; the double chin, folding down
on the neck, became more ostentatiously double than ever. "Well, I
can't admit that," he said, in his suave voice, twirling the string
of his eye-glass. "I was Yorke-Bannerman's advocate, you see; and
therefore I was paid not to admit it. Besides, he was a friend of
mine, and I always liked him. But I will allow that the case did
look a trifle black against him."
The judicious barrister shrugged his shoulders. A genial smile
spread oilily once more over his smooth face. "None of my business
to say so," he answered, puckering the corners of his eyes.
"Still, it was a long time ago; and the circumstances certainly
were suspicious. Perhaps, on the whole, Hubert, it was just as
well the poor fellow died before the trial came off; otherwise"--he
pouted his lips--"I might have had my work cut out to save him."
And he eyed the blue china gods on the mantelpiece affectionately.
"I believe the Crown urged money as the motive?" I suggested.
Mayfield glanced inquiry at me. "Now, why do you want to know all
this?" he asked, in a suspicious voice, coming back from his
dragons. "It is irregular, very, to worm information out of an
innocent barrister in his hours of ease about a former client. We
are a guileless race, we lawyers; don't abuse our confidence."
He seemed an honest man, I thought, in spite of his mocking tone.
I trusted him, and made a clean breast of it. "I believe," I
answered, with an impressive little pause, "I want to marry Yorke-
Bannerman's daughter."
He gave a quick start. "What, Maisie?" he exclaimed.
I shook my head. "No, no; that is not the name," I replied.
He hesitated a moment. "But there is no other," he hazarded
cautiously at last. "I knew the family."
"I am not sure of it," I went on. "I have merely my suspicions. I
am in love with a girl, and something about her makes me think she
is probably a Yorke-Bannerman."
"But, my dear Hubert, if that is so," the great lawyer went on,
waving me off with one fat hand, "it must be at once apparent to
you that I am the last person on earth to whom you ought to apply
for information. Remember my oath. The practice of our clan: the
seal of secrecy!"
I was frank once more. "I do not know whether the lady I mean is
or is not Yorke-Bannerman's daughter," I persisted. "She may be,
and she may not. She gives another name--that's certain. But
whether she is or isn't, one thing I know--I mean to marry her. I
believe in her; I trust her. I only seek to gain this information
now because I don't know where she is--and I want to track her."
He crossed his big hands with an air of Christian resignation, and
looked up at the panels of the coffered ceiling. "In that," he
answered, "I may honestly say, I can't help you. Humbug apart, I
have not known Mrs. Yorke-Bannerman's address--or Maisie's either--
ever since my poor friend's death. Prudent woman, Mrs. Yorke-
Bannerman! She went away, I believe, to somewhere in North Wales,
and afterwards to Brittany. But she probably changed her name;
and--she did not confide in me."
I went on to ask him a few questions about the case, premising that
I did so in the most friendly spirit. "Oh, I can only tell you
what is publicly known," he answered, beaming, with the usual
professional pretence of the most sphinx-like reticence. "But the
plain facts, as universally admitted, were these. I break no
confidence. Yorke-Bannerman had a rich uncle from whom he had
expectations--a certain Admiral Scott Prideaux. This uncle had
lately made a will in Yorke-Bannerman's favour; but he was a
cantankerous old chap--naval, you know--autocratic--crusty--given
to changing his mind with each change of the wind, and easily
offended by his relations--the sort of cheerful old party who makes
a new will once every month, disinheriting the nephew he last dined
with. Well, one day the Admiral was taken ill, at his own house,
and Yorke-Bannerman attended him. Our contention was--I speak now
as my old friend's counsel--that Scott Prideaux, getting as tired
of life as we were all tired of him, and weary of this recurrent
worry of will-making, determined at last to clear out for good from
a world where he was so little appreciated, and, therefore, tried
to poison himself."
"Unfortunately, yes; he made use of aconitine for that otherwise
laudable purpose. Now, as ill luck would have it"--Mayfield's
wrinkles deepened--"Yorke-Bannerman and Sebastian, then two rising
doctors engaged in physiological researches together, had just been
occupied in experimenting upon this very drug--testing the use of
aconitine. Indeed, you will no doubt remember"--he crossed his fat
hands again comfortably--"it was these precise researches on a then
little-known poison that first brought Sebastian prominently before
the public. What was the consequence?" His smooth, persuasive
voice flowed on as if I were a concentrated jury. "The Admiral
grew rapidly worse, and insisted upon calling in a second opinion.
No doubt he didn't like the aconitine when it came to the pinch--
for it does pinch, I can tell you--and repented him of his evil.
Yorke-Bannerman suggested Sebastian as the second opinion; the
uncle acquiesced; Sebastian was called in, and, of course, being
fresh from his researches, immediately recognised the symptoms of
aconitine poisoning."
"What! Sebastian found it out?" I cried, starting.
"Oh, yes! Sebastian. He watched the case from that point to the
end; and the oddest part of it all was this--that though he
communicated with the police, and himself prepared every morsel of
food that the poor old Admiral took from that moment forth, the
symptoms continually increased in severity. The police contention
was that Yorke-Bannerman somehow managed to put the stuff into the
milk beforehand; my own theory was--as counsel for the accused"--he
blinked his fat eyes--"that old Prideaux had concealed a large
quantity of aconitine in the bed, before his illness, and went on
taking it from time to time--just to spite his nephew."
The broad smile broke concentrically in ripples over the great
lawyer's face. His smile was Mayfield's main feature. He shrugged
his shoulders and expanded his big hands wide open before him.
"My dear Hubert," he said, with a most humorous expression of
countenance, "you are a professional man yourself; therefore you
know that every profession has its own little courtesies--its own
small fictions. I was Yorke-Bannerman's counsel, as well as his
friend. 'Tis a point of honour with us that no barrister will ever
admit a doubt as to a client's innocence--is he not paid to
maintain it?--and to my dying day I will constantly maintain that
old Prideaux poisoned himself. Maintain it with that dogged and
meaningless obstinacy with which we always cling to whatever is
least provable. . . . Oh, yes! He poisoned himself; and Yorke-
Bannerman was innocent. . . . But still, you know, it was the sort
of case where an acute lawyer, with a reputation to make, would
prefer to be for the Crown rather than for the prisoner."
"No, happily for us, it was never tried. Fortune favoured us.
Yorke-Bannerman had a weak heart, a conveniently weak heart, which
the inquest sorely affected; and besides, he was deeply angry at
what he persisted in calling Sebastian's defection. He evidently
thought Sebastian ought to have stood by him. His colleague
preferred the claims of public duty--as he understood them, I mean--
to those of private friendship. It was a very sad case--for
Yorke-Bannerman was really a charming fellow. But I confess I was
relieved when he died unexpectedly on the morning of his arrest.
It took off my shoulders a most serious burden."
"You think, then, the case would have gone against him?"
"My dear Hubert," his whole face puckered with an indulgent smile,
"of course the case must have gone against us. Juries are fools;
but they are not such fools as to swallow everything--like
ostriches: to let me throw dust in their eyes about so plain an
issue. Consider the facts, consider them impartially. Yorke-
Bannerman had easy access to aconitine; had whole ounces of it in
his possession; he treated the uncle from whom he was to inherit;
he was in temporary embarrassments--that came out at the inquest;
it was known that the Admiral had just made a twenty-third will in
his favour, and that the Admiral's wills were liable to alteration
every time a nephew ventured upon an opinion in politics, religion,
science, navigation, or the right card at whist, differing by a
shade from that of the uncle. The Admiral died of aconitine
poisoning; and Sebastian observed and detailed the symptoms. Could
anything be plainer--I mean, could any combination of fortuitous
circumstances"--he blinked pleasantly again--"be more adverse to an
advocate sincerely convinced of his client's innocence--as a
professional duty?" And he gazed at me comically.
The more he piled up the case against the man who I now felt sure
was Hilda's father, the less did I believe him. A dark conspiracy
seemed to loom up in the background. "Has it ever occurred to
you," I asked, at last, in a very tentative tone, "that perhaps--I
throw out the hint as the merest suggestion--perhaps it may have
been Sebastian who--"
He smiled this time till I thought his smile would swallow him.
"If Yorke-Bannerman had not been my client," he mused aloud, "I
might have been inclined to suspect rather that Sebastian aided him
to avoid justice by giving him something violent to take, if he
wished it: something which might accelerate the inevitable action
of the heart-disease from which he was suffering. Isn't that more
likely?"
I saw there was nothing further to be got out of Mayfield. His
opinion was fixed; he was a placid ruminant. But he had given me
already much food for thought. I thanked him for his assistance,
and returned on foot to my rooms at the hospital.
I was now, however, in a somewhat different position for tracking
Hilda from that which I occupied before my interview with the
famous counsel. I felt certain by this time that Hilda Wade and
Maisie Yorke-Bannerman were one and the same person. To be sure,
it gave me a twinge to think that Hilda should be masquerading
under an assumed name; but I waived that question for the moment,
and awaited her explanations. The great point now was to find
Hilda. She was flying from Sebastian to mature a new plan. But
whither? I proceeded to argue it out on her own principles; oh,
how lamely! The world is still so big! Mauritius, the Argentine,
British Columbia, New Zealand!
The letter I had received bore the Basingstoke postmark. Now a
person may be passing Basingstoke on his way either to Southampton
or Plymouth, both of which are ports of embarcation for various
foreign countries. I attached importance to that clue. Something
about the tone of Hilda's letter made me realise that she intended
to put the sea between us. In concluding so much, I felt sure I
was not mistaken. Hilda had too big and too cosmopolitan a mind to
speak of being "irrevocably far from London," if she were only
going to some town in England, or even to Normandy, or the Channel
Islands. "Irrevocably far" pointed rather to a destination outside
Europe altogether--to India, Africa, America: not to Jersey,
Dieppe, or Saint-Malo.
Was it Southampton or Plymouth to which she was first bound?--that
was the next question. I inclined to Southampton. For the
sprawling lines (so different from her usual neat hand) were
written hurriedly in a train, I could see; and, on consulting
Bradshaw, I found that the Plymouth expresses stop longest at
Salisbury, where Hilda would, therefore, have been likely to post
her note if she were going to the far west; while some of the
Southampton trains stop at Basingstoke, which is, indeed, the most
convenient point on that route for sending off a letter. This was
mere blind guesswork, to be sure, compared with Hilda's immediate
and unerring intuition; but it had some probability in its favour,
at any rate. Try both: of the two, she was likelier to be going to
Southampton.
My next move was to consult the list of outgoing steamers. Hilda
had left London on a Saturday morning. Now, on alternate
Saturdays, the steamers of the Castle line sail from Southampton,
where they call to take up passengers and mails. Was this one of
those alternate Saturdays? I looked at the list of dates: it was.
That told further in favour of Southampton. But did any steamer of
any passenger line sail from Plymouth on the same day? None, that
I could find. Or from Southampton elsewhere? I looked them all
up. The Royal Mail Company's boats start on Wednesdays; the North
German Lloyd's on Wednesdays and Sundays. Those were the only
likely vessels I could discover. Either, then, I concluded, Hilda
meant to sail on Saturday by the Castle line for South Africa, or
else on Sunday by North German Lloyd for some part of America.
How I longed for one hour of Hilda to help me out with her almost
infallible instinct. I realised how feeble and fallacious was my
own groping in the dark. Her knowledge of temperament would have
revealed to her at once what I was trying to discover, like the
police she despised, by the clumsy "clues" which so roused her
sarcasm.
However, I went to bed and slept on it. Next morning I determined
to set out for Southampton on a tour of inquiry to all the
steamboat agencies. If that failed, I could go on to Plymouth.
But, as chance would have it, the morning post brought me an
unexpected letter, which helped me not a little in unravelling the
problem. It was a crumpled letter, written on rather soiled paper,
in an uneducated hand, and it bore, like Hilda's, the Basingstoke
postmark.
"Charlotte Churtwood sends her duty to Dr. Cumberledge," it said,
with somewhat uncertain spelling, "and I am very sorry that I was
not able to Post the letter to you in London, as the lady ast me,
but after her train ad left has I was stepping into mine the Ingine
started and I was knocked down and badly hurt and the lady gave me
a half-sovering to Post it in London has soon as I got there but
bein unable to do so I now return it dear sir not knowing the
lady's name and adress she having trusted me through seeing me on
the platform, and perhaps you can send it back to her, and was very
sorry I could not Post it were she ast me, but time bein an objeck
put it in the box in Basingstoke station and now inclose post
office order for ten Shillings whitch dear sir kindly let the young
lady have from your obedient servant,
In the corner was the address: "11, Chubb's Cottages, Basingstoke."
The happy accident of this letter advanced things for me greatly--
though it also made me feel how dependent I was upon happy
accidents, where Hilda would have guessed right at once by mere
knowledge of character. Still, the letter explained many things
which had hitherto puzzled me. I had felt not a little surprise
that Hilda, wishing to withdraw from me and leave no traces, should
have sent off her farewell letter from Basingstoke--so as to let me
see at once in what direction she was travelling. Nay, I even
wondered at times whether she had really posted it herself at
Basingstoke, or given it to somebody who chanced to be going there
to post for her as a blind. But I did not think she would
deliberately deceive me; and, in my opinion, to get a letter posted
at Basingstoke would be deliberate deception, while to get it
posted in London was mere vague precaution. I understood now that
she had written it in the train, and then picked out a likely
person as she passed to take it to Waterloo for her.
Of course, I went straight down to Basingstoke, and called at once
at Chubb's Cottages. It was a squalid little row on the outskirts
of the town. I found Charlotte Churtwood herself exactly such a
girl as Hilda, with her quick judgment of character, might have hit
upon for such a purpose. She was a conspicuously honest and
transparent country servant, of the lumpy type, on her way to
London to take a place as housemaid. Her injuries were severe, but
not dangerous. "The lady saw me on the platform," she said, "and
beckoned to me to come to her. She ast me where I was going, and I
says, 'To London, miss.' Says she, smiling kind-like, 'Could you
post a letter for me, certain sure?' Says I, 'You can depend upon
me.' An' then she give me the arf-sovering, an' says, says she,
'Mind, it's very par-tickler; if the gentleman don't get it, 'e'll
fret 'is 'eart out.' An' through 'aving a young man o' my own, as
is a groom at Andover, o' course I understood 'er, sir. An' then,
feeling all full of it, as yu may say, what with the arf-sovering,
and what with one thing and what with another, an' all of a fluster
with not being used to travelling, I run up, when the train for
London come in, an' tried to scramble into it, afore it 'ad quite
stopped moving. An' a guard, 'e rushes up, an' 'Stand back!' says
'e; 'wait till the train stops,' says 'e, an' waves his red flag at
me. But afore I could stand back, with one foot on the step, the
train sort of jumped away from me, and knocked me down like this;
and they say it'll be a week now afore I'm well enough to go on to
London. But I posted the letter all the same, at Basingstoke
station, as they was carrying me off; an' I took down the address,
so as to return the arf-sovering." Hilda was right, as always.
She had chosen instinctively the trustworthy person,--chosen her at
first sight, and hit the bull's-eye.
"Do you know what train the lady was in?" I asked, as she paused.
"Where was it going, did you notice?"
"It was the Southampton train, sir. I saw the board on the
carriage."
That settled the question. "You are a good and an honest girl," I
said, pulling out my purse; "and you came to this misfortune
through trying--too eagerly--to help the young lady. A ten-pound
note is not overmuch as compensation for your accident. Take it,
and get well. I should be sorry to think you lost a good place
through your anxiety to help us."
The rest of my way was plain sailing now. I hurried on straight to
Southampton. There my first visit was to the office of the Castle
line. I went to the point at once. Was there a Miss Wade among
the passengers by the Dunottar Castle?
The clerk perpended. Yes; a lady had come by the mail train from
London, with no heavy baggage, and had gone on board direct, taking
what cabin she could get. A young lady in grey. Quite unprepared.
Gave no name. Called away in a hurry.
Youngish; good-looking; brown hair and eyes, the clerk thought; a
sort of creamy skin; and a--well, a mesmeric kind of glance that
seemed to go right through you.
"That will do," I answered, sure now of my quarry. "To which port
did she book?"
"Very well," I said, promptly. "You may reserve me a good berth in
the next outgoing steamer."
It was just like Hilda's impulsive character to rush off in this
way at a moment's notice; and just like mine to follow her. But it
piqued me a little to think that, but for the accident of an
accident, I might never have tracked her down. If the letter had
been posted in London as she intended, and not at Basingstoke, I
might have sought in vain for her from then till Doomsday.
Ten days later, I was afloat on the Channel, bound for South
Africa.
I always admired Hilda's astonishing insight into character and
motive; but I never admired it quite so profoundly as on the
glorious day when we arrived at Cape Town. I was standing on deck,
looking out for the first time in my life on that tremendous view--
the steep and massive bulk of Table Mountain,--a mere lump of rock,
dropped loose from the sky, with the long white town spread
gleaming at its base, and the silver-tree plantations that cling to
its lower slopes and merge by degrees into gardens and vineyards--
when a messenger from the shore came up to me tentatively.
I took it, in great surprise. Who on earth in Cape Town could have
known I was coming? I had not a friend to my knowledge in the
colony. I glanced at the envelope. My wonder deepened. That
prescient brain! It was Hilda's handwriting.
"MY DEAR HUBERT,--I know you will come; I know you will follow me.
So I am leaving this letter at Donald Currie & Co.'s office, giving
their agent instructions to hand it to you as soon as you reach
Cape Town. I am quite sure you will track me so far at least; I
understand your temperament. But I beg you, I implore you, to go
no further. You will ruin my plan if you do. And I still adhere
to it. It is good of you to come so far; I cannot blame you for
that. I know your motives. But do not try to find me out. I warn
you, beforehand, it will be quite useless. I have made up my mind.
I have an object in life, and, dear as you are to me--that I will
not pretend to deny--I can never allow even you to interfere with
it. So be warned in time. Go back quietly by the next steamer.
I read it twice through with a little thrill of joy. Did any man
ever court so strange a love? Her very strangeness drew me. But
go back by the next steamer! I felt sure of one thing: Hilda was
far too good a judge of character to believe that I was likely to
obey that mandate.
I will not trouble you with the remaining stages of my quest.
Except for the slowness of South African mail coaches, they were
comparatively easy. It is not so hard to track strangers in Cape
Town as strangers in London. I followed Hilda to her hotel, and
from her hotel up country, stage after stage--jolted by rail, worse
jolted by mule-waggon--inquiring, inquiring, inquiring--till I
learned at last she was somewhere in Rhodesia.
That is a big address; but it does not cover as many names as it
covers square miles. In time I found her. Still, it took time;
and before we met, Hilda had had leisure to settle down quietly to
her new existence. People in Rhodesia had noted her coming, as a
new portent, because of one strange peculiarity. She was the only
woman of means who had ever gone up of her own free will to
Rhodesia. Other women had gone there to accompany their husbands,
or to earn their livings; but that a lady should freely select that
half-baked land as a place of residence--a lady of position, with
all the world before her where to choose--that puzzled the
Rhodesians. So she was a marked person. Most people solved the
vexed problem, indeed, by suggesting that she had designs against
the stern celibacy of a leading South African politician. "Depend
upon it," they said, "it's Rhodes she's after." The moment I
arrived at Salisbury, and stated my object in coming, all the world
in the new town was ready to assist me. The lady was to be found
(vaguely speaking) on a young farm to the north--a budding farm,
whose general direction was expansively indicated to me by a wave
of the arm, with South African uncertainty.
I bought a pony at Salisbury--a pretty little seasoned sorrel mare--
and set out to find Hilda. My way lay over a brand-new road, or
what passes for a road in South Africa--very soft and lumpy, like
an English cart-track. I am a fair cross-country rider in our own
Midlands, but I never rode a more tedious journey than that one. I
had crawled several miles under a blazing sun along the shadeless
new track, on my African pony, when, to my surprise I saw, of all
sights in the world, a bicycle coming towards me.
I could hardly believe my eyes. Civilisation indeed! A bicycle in
these remotest wilds of Africa!
I had been picking my way for some hours through a desolate
plateau--the high veldt--about five thousand feet above the sea
level, and entirely treeless. In places, to be sure, a few low
bushes of prickly aspect rose in tangled clumps; but for the most
part the arid table-land was covered by a thick growth of short
brown grass, about nine inches high, burnt up in the sun, and most
wearisome to look at. The distressing nakedness of a new country
confronted me. Here and there a bald farm or two had been
literally pegged out--the pegs were almost all one saw of them as
yet; the fields were in the future. Here and there, again, a
scattered range of low granite hills, known locally as kopjes--red,
rocky prominences, flaunting in the sunshine--diversified the
distance. But the road itself, such as it was, lay all on the high
plain, looking down now and again into gorges or kloofs, wooded on
their slopes with scrubby trees, and comparatively well-watered.
In the midst of all this crude, unfinished land, the mere sight of
a bicycle, bumping over the rubbly road, was a sufficient surprise;
but my astonishment reached a climax when I saw, as it drew near,
that it was ridden by a woman!
One moment later I had burst into a wild cry, and rode forward to
her hurriedly. "Hilda!" I shouted aloud, in my excitement:
"Hilda!"
She stepped lightly from her pedals, as if it had been in the park:
head erect and proud; eyes liquid, lustrous. I dismounted,
trembling, and stood beside her. In the wild joy of the moment,
for the first time in my life, I kissed her fervently. Hilda took
the kiss, unreproving. She did not attempt to refuse me.
"So you have come at last!" she murmured, with a glow on her face,
half nestling towards me, half withdrawing, as if two wills tore
her in different directions. "I have been expecting you for some
days; and, somehow, to-day, I was almost certain you were coming!"
"Then you are not angry with me?" I cried. "You remember, you
forbade me!"
"Angry with you? Dear Hubert, could I ever be angry with you,
especially for thus showing me your devotion and your trust? I am
never angry with you. When one knows, one understands. I have
thought of you so often; sometimes, alone here in this raw new
land, I have longed for you to come. It is inconsistent of me, of
course; but I am so solitary, so lonely!"
She looked up at me shyly--I was not accustomed to see Hilda shy.
Her eyes gazed deep into mine beneath the long, soft lashes. "I
begged you not to follow me," she repeated, a strange gladness in
her tone. "Yes, dear Hubert, I begged you--and I meant it. Cannot
you understand that sometimes one hopes a thing may never happen--
and is supremely happy because it happens, in spite of one? I have
a purpose in life for which I live: I live for it still. For its
sake I told you you must not come to me. Yet you have come,
against my orders; and--" she paused, and drew a deep sigh--"oh,
Hubert, I thank you for daring to disobey me!"
I clasped her to my bosom. She allowed me, half resisting. "I am
too weak," she murmured. "Only this morning, I made up my mind
that when I saw you I would implore you to return at once. And now
that you are here--" she laid her little hand confidingly in mine--
"see how foolish I am!--I cannot dismiss you."
"Which means to say, Hilda, that, after all, you are still a
woman!"
"A woman; oh, yes; very much a woman! Hubert, I love you; I half
wish I did not."
"Because--if I did not, I could send you away--so easily! As it
is--I cannot let you stop--and . . . I cannot dismiss you."
"Then divide it," I cried gaily; "do neither; come away with me!"
"No, no; nor that, either. I will not stultify my whole past life.
I will not dishonour my dear father's memory."
I looked around for something to which to tether my horse. A
bridle is in one's way--when one has to discuss important business.
There was really nothing about that seemed fit for the purpose.
Hilda saw what I sought, and pointed mutely to a stunted bush
beside a big granite boulder which rose abruptly from the dead
level of the grass, affording a little shade from that sweltering
sunlight. I tied my mare to the gnarled root--it was the only part
big enough--and sat down by Hilda's side, under the shadow of a
great rock in a thirsty land. I realised at that moment the force
and appropriateness of the Psalmist's simile. The sun beat
fiercely on the seeding grasses. Away on the southern horizon we
could faintly perceive the floating yellow haze of the prairie
fires lit by the Mashonas.
"Then you knew I would come?" I began, as she seated herself on the
burnt-up herbage, while my hand stole into hers, to nestle there
naturally.
She pressed it in return. "Oh, yes; I knew you would come," she
answered, with that strange ring of confidence in her voice. "Of
course you got my letter at Cape Town?"
"I did, Hilda--and I wondered at you more than ever as I read it.
But if you knew I would come, why write to prevent me?"
Her eyes had their mysterious far-away air. She looked out upon
infinity. "Well, I wanted to do my best to turn you aside," she
said, slowly. "One must always do one's best, even when one feels
and believes it is useless. That surely is the first clause in a
doctor's or a nurse's rubric."
"Butwhy didn't you want me to come?" I persisted. "Why fight
against your own heart? Hilda, I am sure--I know you love me."
Her bosom rose and fell. Her eyes dilated. "Love you?" she cried,
looking away over the bushy ridges, as if afraid to trust herself.
"Oh, yes, Hubert, I love you! It is not for that that I wish to
avoid you. Or, rather, it is just because of that. I cannot
endure to spoil your life--by a fruitless affection."
She crossed her hands resignedly. "You know all by this time," she
answered. "Sebastian would tell you, of course, when you went to
announce that you were leaving Nathaniel's. He could not do
otherwise; it is the outcome of his temperament--an integral part
of his nature."
"Hilda," I cried, "you are a witch! How could you know that? I
can't imagine."
She smiled her restrained, Chaldean smile. "Because I know
Sebastian," she answered, quietly. I can read that man to the
core. He is simple as a book. His composition is plain,
straightforward, quite natural, uniform. There are no twists and
turns in him. Once learn the key, and it discloses everything,
like an open sesame. He has a gigantic intellect, a burning thirst
for knowledge; one love, one hobby--science; and no moral
instincts. He goes straight for his ends; and whatever comes in
his way," she dug her little heel in the brown soil, "he tramples
on it as ruthlessly as a child will trample on a worm or a beetle."
"Yes, great, I grant you; but the easiest character to unravel that
I have ever met. It is calm, austere, unbending, yet not in the
least degree complex. He has the impassioned temperament, pushed
to its highest pitch; the temperament that runs deep, with
irresistible force; but the passion that inspires him, that carries
him away headlong, as love carries some men, is a rare and abstract
one--the passion of science."
I gazed at her as she spoke, with a feeling akin to awe. "It must
destroy the plot-interest of life for you, Hilda," I cried--out
there in the vast void of that wild African plateau--"to foresee so
well what each person will do--how each will act under such given
circumstances."
She pulled a bent of grass and plucked off its dry spikelets one by
one. "Perhaps so," she answered, after a meditative pause;
"though, of course, all natures are not equally simple. Only with
great souls can you be sure beforehand like that, for good or for
evil. It is essential to anything worth calling character that one
should be able to predict in what way it will act under given
circumstances--to feel certain, 'This man will do nothing small or
mean,' 'That one could never act dishonestly, or speak deceitfully.'
But smaller natures are more complex. They defy analysis, because
their motives are not consistent."
"Most people think to be complex is to be great," I objected.
She shook her head. "That is quite a mistake," she answered.
"Great natures are simple, and relatively predictable, since their
motives balance one another justly. Small natures are complex, and
hard to predict, because small passions, small jealousies, small
discords and perturbations come in at all moments, and override for
a time the permanent underlying factors of character. Great
natures, good or bad, are equably poised; small natures let petty
motives intervene to upset their balance."
"Then you knew I would come," I exclaimed, half pleased to find I
belonged inferentially to her higher category.
Her eyes beamed on me with a beautiful light. "Knew you would
come? Oh, yes. I begged you not to come; but I felt sure you were
too deeply in earnest to obey me. I asked a friend in Cape Town to
telegraph your arrival; and almost ever since the telegram reached
me I have been expecting you and awaiting you."
"Implicitly--as you in me. That is the worst of it, Hubert. If
you did not believe in me, I could have told you all--and then, you
would have left me. But, as it is, you know all--and yet, you want
to cling to me."
She paused. The calm smile lighted up her face once more. Then
she drew out a pencil. "You think life must lack plot-interest for
me," she began, slowly, "because, with certain natures, I can
partially guess beforehand what is coming. But have you not
observed that, in reading a novel, part of the pleasure you feel
arises from your conscious anticipation of the end, and your
satisfaction in seeing that you anticipated correctly? Or part,
sometimes, from the occasional unexpectedness of the real
denouement? Well, life is like that. I enjoy observing my
successes, and, in a way, my failures. Let me show you what I
mean. I think I know what you said to Sebastian--not the words, of
course, but the purport; and I will write it down now for you. Set
down your version, too. And then we will compare them."
It was a crucial test. We both wrote for a minute or two.
Somehow, in Hilda's presence, I forgot at once the strangeness of
the scene, the weird oddity of the moment. That sombre plain
disappeared for me. I was only aware that I was with Hilda once
more--and therefore in Paradise. Pison and Gihon watered the
desolate land. Whatever she did seemed to me supremely right. If
she had proposed to me to begin a ponderous work on Medical
Jurisprudence, under the shadow of the big rock, I should have
begun it incontinently.
She handed me her slip of paper; I took it and read: "Sebastian
told you I was Dr. Yorke-Bannerman's daughter. And you answered,
'If so, Yorke-Bannerman was innocent, and you are the poisoner.'
Is not that correct?"
I handed her in answer my own paper. She read it with a faint
flush. When she came to the words: "Either she is not Yorke-
Bannerman's daughter; or else, Yorke-Bannerman was not a poisoner,
and someone else was--I might put a name to him," she rose to her
feet with a great rush of long-suppressed feeling, and clasped me
passionately. "My Hubert!" she cried, "I read you aright. I knew
it! I was sure of you!"
I folded her in my arms, there, on the rusty-red South African
desert. "Then, Hilda dear," I murmured, "you will consent to marry
me?"
The words brought her back to herself. She unfolded my arms with
slow reluctance. "No, dearest," she said, earnestly, with a face
where pride fought hard against love. "That is why, above all
things, I did not want you to follow me. I love you; I trust you:
you love me; you trust me. But I never will marry anyone till I
have succeeded in clearing my father's memory. I know he did not
do it; I know Sebastian did. But that is not enough. I must prove
it, I must prove it!"
"I believe it already," I answered. "What need, then, to prove
it?"
"To you, Hubert? Oh, no; not to you. There I am safe. But to the
world that condemned him--condemned him untried. I must vindicate
him; I must clear him!"
I bent my face close to hers. "But may I not marry you first?" I
asked--"and after that, I can help you to clear him."
She gazed at me fearlessly. "No, no!" she cried, clasping her
hands; "much as I love you, dear Hubert, I cannot consent to it. I
am too proud!--too proud! I will not allow the world to say--not
even to say falsely"--her face flushed crimson; her voice dropped
low--"I will not allow them to say those hateful words, 'He married
a murderer's daughter.'"
I bowed my head. "As you will, my darling," I answered. "I am
content to wait. I trust you in this, too. Some day, we will
prove it."
And all this time, preoccupied as I was with these deeper concerns,
I had not even asked where Hilda lived, or what she was doing!