A lady who lived at Kilburn, and entertained largely in a house not
designed for large entertainment, was 'at home' this evening. At
eleven o'clock the two drawing-rooms contained as many people as
could sit and stand with semblance of comfort; around the hostess,
on the landing, pressed a crowd, which grew constantly thicker by
affluence from the staircase. In the hall below a 'Hungarian band'
discoursed very loud music. Among recent arrivals appeared a troupe
of nigger minstrels, engaged to give their exhilarating
entertainment--if space could be found for them. Bursts of
laughter from the dining-room announced the success of an American
joker, who, in return for a substantial cheque, provided amusement
in fashionable gatherings. A brilliant scene. The air, which
encouraged perspiration, was rich with many odours; voices
endeavouring to make themselves audible in colloquy, swelled to a
tumultuous volume that vied with the Hungarian clangours.
In a corner of the staircase, squeezed behind two very fat women in
very low dresses, stood Horace Lord. His heated countenance wore a
look of fretful impatience; he kept rising upon his toes in an
endeavour to distinguish faces down in the hall. At length his
expression changed, and with eager eyes he began to force a way for
himself between the fat women. Not unrewarded with glaring glances,
and even with severe remarks, he succeeded in gaining the foot of
the staircase, and came within reach of the persons for whom he had
been waiting. These were Mrs. Damerel and Fanny French. The elder
lady exhibited a toilet of opulence corresponding with her mature
charms; the younger, as became a debutante, wore graceful white,
symbol of her maiden modesty.
'You promised to be early,' said Horace, addressing Mrs. Damerel, but
regarding Fanny, who stood in conversation with a florid man of
uncertain age.
The man beside her gave Horace a friendly nod. His name was
Mankelow. Horace had met him once or twice of late at Mrs. Damerel's,
but did not like him, and felt still less disposed to do so now that
Mankelow was acquainted with Fanny French. He suspected that the two
were more familiar than Fanny pretended. With little ceremony, he
interposed himself between the girl and this possible rival.
'Why didn't you make her come earlier?' he said to Fanny, as they
began a slow upward struggle in the rear of Mrs. Damerel.
Fanny threw up her chin, and glanced back to see that Mankelow was
following. In his vexation, Horace was seized with a cough--a
cough several times repeated before he could check it.
'Your cold's no better,' said Fanny. 'You oughtn't to have come out
at night.'
'Itis better,' he replied sharply. 'That's the first time I've
coughed to-day. Do you mean you would rather not have found me
here?'
'How silly you are! People will hear what you're saying.'
It was Fanny's 'first season,' but not her first 'at home.' Mrs.
Damerel seemed to be taking an affectionate interest in her, and had
introduced her to several people. Horace, gratified in the
beginning, now suffered from jealousy; it tortured him to observe
Fanny when she talked with men. That her breeding was defective,
mattered nothing in this composite world of pseudo-elegance. Young
Lord, who did not lack native intelligence, understood by this time
that Mrs. Damerel and her friends were far from belonging to a high
order of society; he saw vulgarity rampant in every drawing-room to
which he was admitted, and occasionally heard things which startled
his suburban prejudices. But Fanny, in her wild enjoyment of these
novel splendours, appeared to lose all self-control. She flirted
outrageously, and before his very eyes. If he reproached her, she
laughed at him; if he threatened to free himself, she returned a
look which impudently bade him try. Horace had all her faults by
heart, and no longer tried to think that he respected her, or that,
if he married such a girl, his life could possibly be a happy one;
but she still played upon his passions, and at her beck he followed
like a dog.
The hostess, Mrs. Dane, a woman who looked as if she had once been
superior to the kind of life she now led, welcomed him with peculiar
warmth, and in a quick confidential voice bade him keep near her for
a few minutes.
'There's some one I want to introduce you to--some one I'm sure
you will like to know.'
Obeying her, he soon lost sight of Fanny; but Mrs. Dane continued to
talk, at intervals, in such a flattering tone, that his turbid
emotions were soothed. He had heard of the Chittles? No? They were
very old friends of hers, said Mrs. Dane, and she particularly wanted
him to know them. Ah, here they came; mother and daughter. Horace
observed them. Mrs. Chittle was a frail, worn, nervous woman, who
must once have been comely; her daughter, a girl of two-and-twenty,
had a pale, thin face of much sweetness and gentleness. They seemed
by no means at home in this company; but Mrs. Chittle, when she
conversed, assumed a vivacious air; the daughter, trying to follow
her example, strove vainly against an excessive bashfulness, and
seldom raised her eyes. Why he should be expected to pay special
attention to these people, Horace was at a loss to understand; but
Mrs. Chittle attached herself to him, and soon led him into familiar
dialogue. He learnt from her that they had lived for two or three
years in a very quiet country place; they had come up for the
season, but did not know many people. She spoke of her daughter, who
stood just out of earshot,--her eyes cast down, on her face a sad
fixed smile,--and said that it had been necessary almost to force
her into society. 'She loves the country, and is so fond of books;
but at her age it's really a shame to live like a nun--don't you
think so, Mr. Lord?' Decidedly it was, said Horace. 'I'm doing my
best,' pursued Mrs. Chittle, 'to cure her of her shyness. She is
really afraid of people--and it's such a pity. She says that the
things people talk about don't interest her; but all people are
not frivolous--are they, Mr. Lord?' Horace hoped not; and presently
out of mere good-nature he tried to converse with the young lady in
a way that should neither alarm her shyness nor prove distasteful to
her intelligence. But with very little success. From time to time
the girl glanced at him with strange timidity, yet seemed quite
willing to listen as long as he chose to talk.
Fanny, being at a considerable distance from home, was to return to
the boarding-house where her chaperon now lived, and have a room
there for the night. Horace disliked this arrangement, for the
objectionable Mankelow lived in the same house. When he was able to
get speech with Fanny, he tried to persuade her to go with him all
the way home to Camberwell in a cab. Miss. French would not listen to
the suggestion.
'Who ever heard of such a thing? It wouldn't be proper.'
'Proper! Oh, I like that!' he replied, with scathing irony.
'You can either like it or not. Mrs. Damerel wouldn't dream of
allowing it. I think she's quite as good a judge of propriety as you
are.'
They were in a corner of the dining-room. Fanny, having supped much
to her satisfaction, had a high colour, and treated her lover with
more than usual insolence. Horace had eaten little, but had not
refrained from beverages; he was disposed to assert himself.
'It seems to me that we ought to have an understanding. You never do
as I wish in a single thing. What do you mean by it?'
'Very well. That's as much as to say that you care nothing about me.
I'm not going to be the slave of a girl who has no sense of honour
--not even of decency. If you wish me to speak to you again you
must speak first.'
It drew towards one o'clock when, having exhausted the delights of
the evening, and being in a decidedly limp condition, Mrs. Damerel
and her protegee drove home. Fanny said nothing of what had passed
between her and Horace. The elder lady, after keeping silence for
half the drive, spoke at length in a tone of indulgent playfulness.
'Not for long. Now and then. He took me down to supper--the first
time.'
'I'm afraid somebody will be a little jealous. I shall get into
trouble. I didn't foresee this.'
'Somebody must treat me in a reasonable way,' Fanny answered, with a
dry laugh.
'I'm quite sure he will,' said Mrs. Damerel suavely. 'But I feel
myself a little responsible, you know. Let me put you on your guard
against Mr. Mankelow. I'm afraid he's rather a dangerous man. I have
heard rather alarming stories about him. You see he's very rich, and
very rich men, if they're rather handsome as well, say and do things
--you understand?'
'Well, several thousands a year, and a prospect of more when
relatives die. I don't mean to say that he is a bad man. He belongs
to a very good family, and I believe him perfectly honourable. He
would never do any one any harm--or, if he happened to, without
meaning it, I'm quite sure he'd repair it in the honourable way.'
'To a young lady who is already engaged. Confess that you think him
rather good-looking.'
Having inflamed the girl's imagination, Mrs. Damerel presently
dropped the subject, and fell again into weary silence.
At noon of the next day she received a call from Horace, who found
her over tea and toast in her private sitting-room. The young man
looked bilious; he coughed, too, and said that he must have caught
fresh cold last night.
'That house was like an oven. I won't go to any more such places.
That isn't my idea of enjoying myself.'
Mrs. Damerel examined him with affectionate solicitude, and reflected
before speaking.
By careful interrogation--the caressing notes of her voice seemed
to convey genuine feeling--Mrs. Damerel elicited the fact that he
had spent not less than fifty pounds in a few weeks. She looked very
grave.
And he unburdened himself of his complaints against the frivolous
charmer, Mrs. Damerel listening with a compassionate smile.
'I'm afraid it's all too true, dear boy. But didn't I warn you?'
'You have made her worse. And I more than half believe you have
purposely put her in the way of that fellow Mankelow. Now I tell you
plainly'--his voice quivered--'if I lose her, I'll raise all the
money I can and play the very devil.'
'Hush! no naughty words! Let us talk about something else till you
are quieter.--What did you think of Mrs. Chittle?'
'Of her daughter, then. Isn't she a sweet, quiet girl? Do you know
that she is rich? It's perfectly true. Mrs. Chittle is the widow of a
man who made a big fortune out of a kind of imitation velvet. It
sold only for a few years, then something else drove it out of the
market; but the money was made. I know all about it from Mrs. Dane.'
'The poor girl has been very unfortunate. In the last year of her
father's life they lived in good style, town-house and
country-house. And she fell in love with somebody who--who treated
her badly; broke it off, in fact, just before the wedding. She had a
bad illness, and since then she has lived as her mother told you.'
'I--oh, I took it for granted. She said you had had a long talk.
You can see, of course, that they're not ordinary people. Didn't
Winifred--her name is Winifred--strike you as very refined and
lady-like?'
'That's her nervousness. She has quite got out of the habit of
society. But she's very clever, and so good. I want you to see more
of her. If she comes here to tea, will you--just to please me--
look in for half-an-hour?'
She bent her head aside, wistfully. Horace vouchsafed no reply.
'Dear boy, I know very well what a disappointment you are suffering.
Why not be quite open with me? Though I'm only a tiresome old aunt,
I feel every bit as anxious for your happiness as if I were your
mother--I do indeed, Horace. You believe me, don't you?'
'You have been very kind, in many ways. But you've done harm to
Fanny--'
'No harm whatever, Horace--believe me. I have only given her an
opportunity of showing what she really is. You see now that she
thinks of nothing at all but money and selfish pleasures. Compare
her, my dear, with such a girl as Winifred Chittle. I only mean--
just to show you the difference between a lady and such a girl as
Fanny. She has treated you abominably, my poor boy. And what would
she bring you? Not that I wish you to marry for money. I have seen
too much of the world to be so foolish, so wicked. But when there
are sweet, clever, lady-like girls, with large incomes--! And a
handsome boy like you! You may blush, but there's no harm in telling
the truth. You are far too modest. You don't know how you look in
the eyes of an affectionate, thoughtful girl--like Winifred, for
instance. It's dreadful to think of you throwing yourself away! My
dear, it may sound shocking to you, but Fanny French isn't the sort
of girl that men marry.'
'You are so young,' pursued the mature lady, with an indulgent
smile. 'You need the advice of some one who knows the world. In
years to come, you will feel very grateful to me. Now don't let us
talk any more of that, just now; but tell me something about Nancy.
How much longer does she mean to stay in Cornwall?'
'Nor of mine, you mean to say. Still, it does seem rather strange. I
suppose she is quite to be trusted?'
'Trusted? What harm can come to her? She's keeping out of Sam
Barmby's way, that's all. I believe he plagued her to marry him. A
nice husband for Nancy!'
'I wish we had taken to each other,' said Mrs. Damerel musingly. 'I
think she was a little jealous of the attention I had paid to you.
But perhaps we shall do better some day. And I'm quite content so
long as you care a little for me, dear boy. You'll never give me
up, will you?'
It was asked with unusual show of feeling; she leaned forward, her
eyes fixed tenderly upon the boy's face.
'You would never let a Fanny French come between us, Horace dear?'
'I only wish you hadn't brought her among your friends.'
'Some day you will be glad of what I did. Whatever happens, I am
your best friend--the best and truest friend you will ever have.
You will know it some day.'
The voice impressed Horace, its emotion was so true. Several times
through the day he recalled and thought of it. As yet he had felt
nothing like affection for Mrs. Damerel, but before their next
meeting an impulse he did not try to account for caused him to write
her a letter--simply to assure her that he was not ungrateful for
her kindness. The reply that came in a few hours surprised and
touched him, for it repeated in yet warmer words all she had spoken.
'Let me be in the place of a mother to you, dear Horace. Think of me
as if I were your mother. If I were your mother indeed, I could not
love you more.' He mused over this, and received from it a sense of
comfort which was quite new to him.
All through the winter he had been living as a gentleman of assured
independence. This was managed very simply. Acting on Mrs. Damerel's
counsel he insured his life, and straightaway used the policy as
security for a loan of five hundred pounds from a friend of Mrs.
Damerel's. The insurance itself was not effected without a
disagreeable little episode. As a result of the medical examination,
Horace learnt, greatly to his surprise, that he would have to pay a
premium somewhat higher than the ordinary. Unpleasant questions were
asked: Was he quite sure that he knew of no case of consumption in
his family? Quite sure, he answered stoutly, and sincerely. Why? Did
the doctor think him consumptive? Oh dear no, but--a slight
constitutional weakness. In fine, the higher premium must be
exacted. He paid it with the indifference of his years, but said
nothing to Mrs. Damerel.
And thereupon began the sowing of wild oats. At two-and-twenty,
after domestic restraint and occupations that he detested, he was
let loose upon life. Five hundred pounds seemed to him practically
inexhaustible. He did not wish to indulge in great extravagance;
merely to see and to taste the world.
Ah, the rapture of those first nights, when he revelled amid the
tumult of London, pursuing joy with a pocket full of sovereigns!
Theatres, music-halls, restaurants and public-houses--he had seen
so little of these things, that they excited him as they do a lad
fresh from the country. He drew the line nowhere. Love of a worthy
woman tells for chastity even in the young and the sensual; love of
a Fanny French merely debauches the mind and inflames the passions.
Secure in his paganism, Horace followed where the lures of London
beckoned him; he knew not reproach of conscience; shame offered but
thin resistance to his boiling blood. By a miracle he had as yet
escaped worse damage to health than a severe cold, caught one night
after heroic drinking. That laid him by the heels for a time, and
the cough still clung to him.
In less than two years he would command seven thousand pounds, and a
share in the business now conducted by Samuel Barmby. What need to
stint himself whilst he felt able to enjoy life? If Fanny deceived
him, were there not, after all, other and better Fannys to be won by
his money? For it was a result of this girl's worthlessness that
Horace, in most things so ingenuous, had come to regard women with
unconscious cynicism. He did not think he could be loved for his own
sake, but he believed that, at any time, the show of love, perhaps
its ultimate sincerity, might be won by display of cash.
Midway in the month of May he again caught a severe cold, and was
confined to the house for nearly three weeks. Mrs. Damerel, who
nursed him well and tenderly, proposed that he should go down for
change of air to Falmouth. He wrote to Nancy, asking whether she
would care to see him. A prompt reply informed him that his sister
was on the point of returning to London, so that he had better
choose some nearer seaside resort.
He went to Hastings for a few days, but wearied of the place, and
came back to his London excitements. Nancy, however, had not yet
returned; nor did she until the beginning of July.