"Why should Waymark have said so, then?" asked Julian, standing
still and looking at her. He spoke very quietly, but his face
betrayed some annoyance.
Harriet merely laughed, her most ill-natured and maliciously
suggestive laugh, and rose from her seat. Julian came up and faced
her.
"Harriet," he said, with perfect gentleness, though his lips
trembled, "why do you always prefer to think the worst of people? I
always look for the good rather than the evil in people I meet."
"We're different in a good many things, you see," said Harriet, with
a sneer. Her countenance had darkened. Julian had learnt the
significance of her looks and tones only too well. Under the
circumstances it would have been better to keep silence, but
something compelled him to speak.
"I am sure of this," he said. "If you will only meet her in her own
spirit, you will find her a valuable friend--just such a friend as
you need. But of course if you begin with all manner of prejudices
and suspicions, it will be very hard for her to make you believe in
her sincerity. Certainly her kindness, her sympathy, her whole
manner, was perfect to-night."
"Naturally I did, being so anxious that you should find a friend and
companion."
"And who is she, I should like to know?" said Harriet, with
perfection of subdued acrimony. "How can I tell that she's a proper
person to be a friend to me? I know what her mother was, at all
events."
Julian had never known the whole story of that scar on his wife's
forehead.
"Never mind," said Harriet, nodding significantly.
"I have no idea what you mean," Julian returned. "At all events I
can trust Waymark, and I know very well he would not have brought
her here, if she hadn't been a proper person for you to know. But
come," he added quickly, making an effort to dismiss the
disagreeable tone between them, "there's surely no need for us to
talk like this, Harriet. I am sure you will like her, when you know
her better. Promise me that you will try, dear. You are so lonely,
and it would rejoice me so to feel that you had a friend to help you
and to be a comfort to you. At all events you will judge her on her
own merits, won't you, and put aside all kind of prejudice?"
"I haven't said I shouldn't; but I suppose I must get to know her
first?"
Ominous as such a commencement would have been under any other
circumstances, Julian was so prepared for more decided hostility,
that he was even hopeful. When he met Waymark next, the change in
his manner was obvious; he was almost cheerful once more. And the
improvement held its ground as the next two or three weeks went by.
Ida came to Beaufort Street often, and Julian was able to use the
freedom he thus obtained to spend more time in Waymark's society.
The latter noticed the change in him with surprise.
"Things go well still?" he would ask, when Julian came in of an
evening.
"Very well indeed. Harriet hasn't been out one night this week."
They did not speak much of Ida, however. It was only when three
weeks had gone by that Julian asked one night, with some hesitation
in putting the question, whether Waymark saw her often.
"Pretty often," was the reply. "I am her tutor, in a sort of way. We
read together, and that kind of thing."
"She seems very intelligent," said Julian, letting the question pass
by, and speaking with some constraint. "Isn't it a pity that she
can't find some employment better suited to her?"
"I don't see what is open. Could you suggest anything?"
"No," said Waymark, shaking his head and smiling. "It isn't as you
think. It is perfectly understood between us that we are to be
agreeable company to each other, and absolutely nothing beyond that.
I have no motive for leading you astray in the matter. However
things were, I would tell you frankly."
"Do you mean to tell me honestly that--that you--"
"Well?--you mean to say, that I am not in love with the girl?"
"No, I wasn't going to say that," said Julian, with his usual
bashfulness, heightened in this case by some feeling which made him
pale. "I meant, do you really believe that she has no kind of
regard for you beyond mere friendship?"
"Why? Have you formed any conclusions of your own on the point?"
"And you look on me," said Waymark, after thinking for a moment, "as
an insensible dog, with a treasure thrown at his feet which he is
quite incapable of appreciating or making use of?"
"No. I only feel that your position must be a very difficult one.
But perhaps you had rather not speak of these things?"
"On the contrary. You are perfectly right, and the position is as
difficult as it well could be."
"You had made your choice, I suppose, before you knew Ida at all?"
"So far from that, I haven't even made it yet. I am not at all sure
that my chance of ever marrying Maud Enderby is not so utterly
remote, that t ought to put aside all thought of it. In that
case--"
"But this is a strange state of mind," said Julian, with a forced
laugh. "Is it possible to balance feelings in this way?"
"I don't know Miss Enderby," said Julian, reddening.
Waymark walked up and down the room, with his hands behind his back,
his brows bent. He had never told his friend anything of Ida's
earlier history; but now he felt half-tempted to let him know
everything. To do so, might possibly give him that additional motive
to a clear and speedy decision in the difficulties which grew ever
more pressing. Yet was it just to Ida to speak of these things even
to one who would certainly not repeat a word? Once or twice he all
but began, yet in the end a variety of motives kept him silent.
"Well," he exclaimed shortly, "we'll talk about this another time.
Perhaps I shall have more to tell you. Don't be gloomy. Look, here I
am just upon the end of my novel. If all goes smoothly I shall
finish it in a fortnight, and then I will read it to you."
"I hope you may have better luck with it than I had," said Julian.
"Oh, your time is yet to come. And it's very likely I shall be no
better off. There are things in the book which will scarcely
recommend it to the British parent. But it shall be published, if it
is at my own expense. If it comes to the worst, I shall sell my
mining shares to Woodstock."
"After all," said Julian, smiling, "you are a capitalist."
Since that first evening Julian had refrained from speaking to his
wife about Ida, beyond casual remarks and questions which could
carry no significance. Harriet likewise had been silent. As far as
could be observed, however, she seemed to take a pleasure in Ida's
society, and, as Julian said, with apparently good result to
herself. She was more at home than formerly, and her health even
seemed to profit by the change. Still, there was something not
altogether natural in all this, and Julian could scarcely bring
himself to believe in the happy turn things seemed to be taking. In
Harriet herself there was no corresponding growth of cheerfulness or
good-nature. She was quiet, but with a quietness not altogether
pleasant; it was as though her thoughts were constantly occupied, as
never hitherto; and her own moral condition was hardly likely to be
the subject of these meditations. Julian, when he sat reading,
sometimes became desperately aware of her eyes being fixed on him
for many minutes at a time. Once, on this happening, he looked up
with a smile.
"What is it, dear?" he asked, turning round to her. "You are very
quiet. Shall I put away the book and talk?"
"You've been much better lately, haven't you?" he said, taking her
hand playfully. "Let me feel your pulse; you know I'm half a
doctor."
She drew it away peevishly. But Julian, whom a peaceful hour had
made full of kindness, went on in the same gentle way.
"You don't know how happy it makes me to see you and Ida such good
friends. I was sure it would be so. Don't you feel there is
something soothing in her society? She speaks so gently, and always
brings a sort of sunshine with her."
Harriet's lips curled, very slightly, but she said nothing.
"When are you going to see her again? It's hardly fair to let the
visiting be always on her side, is it?"
Julian presently went back to his book again. If he could have seen
the look Harriet turned upon him when his face was averted, he would
not have read so calmly.
That same evening Harriet herself was the subject of a short
conversation between Ida and Waymark, as they sat together in the
usual way.
"I fear there will never be anything like confidence between us,"
Ida was saying. "Do you know that I am sometimes almost afraid of
her; sometimes she looks and speaks as if she hated me."
"She is a poor, ill-conditioned creature," Waymark re plied, rather
contemptuously.
"Can you explain," asked Ida, "how it was that Mr. Casti married
her?"
"For my life, I can't! I half believe it was out of mere pity; I
shouldn't wonder if the proposal came from her side. Casti might
once have done something; but I'm afraid he never will now."
"And he is so very good to her. I pity him from my heart whenever I
see them together. Often I have been so discouraged by her cold
suspicious ways, that I half-thought I should have to give it up,
but I felt it would be cruel to desert him so. I met him in the
street the other night just as I was going to her, and he thanked me
for what I was doing in a way that almost made me cry."
"By-the-by," said Waymark, "you know her too well to venture upon
anything like direct criticism of her behaviour, when you talk
together!"
"Indeed, I scarcely venture to speak of herself at all. It would be
hard to say what we talk about."
"Of course," Waymark said, after a short silence, "there are limits
to self-devotion. So long as it seems to you that there is any
chance of doing some good, well, persevere. But you mustn't be
sacrificed to such a situation. The time you give her is so much
absolute loss to yourself."
"Oh, but I work hard to make up for it. You are not dissatisfied
with me?"
This was one of the things that Waymark was ever and again saying,
in spite of himself. He could not resist the temptation of proving
his power in this way; it is so sweet to be assured of love, even
though every voice within cries out against the temptation to enjoy
it, and condemns every word or act that could encourage it to hope.
Ida generally met such remarks with silence; but in this instance
she looked up steadily, and said--
"Yes, it would matter much." Waymark drew in his breath, half
turned away--and spoke of some quite different matter.
Harriet carried out her intention of visiting Ida on the following
day. In these three weeks she had only been to Ida's lodgings once.
The present visit was unexpected. She waited about the pavement for
Ida's return from work, and shortly saw her approaching.
"This is kind of you," Ida said. "We'll have some tea, and then, if
you're not too tired, we might go into the park. It will be cool
then."
She dreaded the thought of sitting alone with Harriet. But the
latter said she must get home early, and would only have time to sit
for half an hour. When Ida had lit her fire, and put the kettle on,
she found that the milk which she had kept since the morning for
Grim and herself had gone sour; so she had to run out to a dairy to
fetch some.
"You won't mind being left alone for a minute?" she said.
As soon as she was alone, Harriet went into the bed-room, and began
to examine everything. Grim had followed her, and came up to rub
affectionately against her feet, but she kicked him, muttering, "Get
off; you black beast!" Having scrutinised the articles which lay
about, she quickly searched the pockets of a dress which hung on the
door, but found nothing except a handkerchief. All the time she
listened for any footfall on the stone steps without. Next she went
to the chest of drawers, and was pleased to find that they were
unlocked. In the first she drew out there were some books and
papers. These she rummaged through very quickly, and at length,
underneath them, came upon a little bundle of pawn-tickets. On
finding these, she laughed to herself, and carefully inspected every
one of them. "Gold chain," she muttered; "bracelet; seal-skin;--
what was she doing with all those things, I wonder? Ho, ho, Miss
Starr?"
She started; there was a step on the stairs. In a second everything
was replaced, and she was back in the sitting-room, stooping over
Grim, who took her endearments with passive indignation.
"Have I been long?" panted Ida, as she came in. "The kettle won't be
a minute. You'll take your things off?"
Harriet removed her hat only. As Ida went about, preparing the tea,
Harriet watched her with eyes in which there was a new light. She
spoke, too, in almost a cheerful way, and even showed a better
appetite than usual when they sat down together.
"Oh, you must be more hopeful. Try not to look so much on the dark
side of things. How would you be," she added, with a good-humoured
laugh, "if you had to work all day, like me? I'm sure you've a great
deal to make you feel happy and thankful."
"But your husband, your home, your long, free days?"
The other laughed peevishly. Ida turned her head away for a moment;
she was irritated by this wretched humour, and, as had often been
the case of late, found it difficult to restrain some rather
trenchant remark.
"It may sound strange," she said, with a smile, "but I think I
should be very willing to endure bad health for a position something
like yours."
Harriet laughed again, and still more unpleasantly.
Later in the evening Harriet went to call upon her friend Mrs.
Sprowl. Something of an amusing kind seemed to be going forward in
front of the house. On drawing near and pressing into the crowd of
loitering people, she beheld a spectacle familiar to her, and one
which brought a smile to her face. A man of wretched appearance, in
vile semblance of clothing which barely clung together about him,
was standing on his head upon the pavement, and, in that attitude,
drawling out what was meant for a song, while those around made
merry and indulged in practical jokes at his expense. One such put a
sudden end to the exhibition. A young ragamuffin drew near with a
handful of rich mud, and carefully cast it right into the singer's
inverted mouth. The man was on his feet in an instant, and pursuing
the assailant, who, however, succeeded in escaping down an alley
hard by. Returning, the man went from one to another in the crowd,
holding out his hand. Harriet passed on into the bar.
"Slimy's up to his larks to-night," exclaimed Mrs. Sprowl, with a
laugh, as she welcomed her visitor in the bar-parlour. "He'll be
losin' his sweet temper just now, see if he don't, an' then one o'
them chaps 'll get a bash i' the eye."
"I always like to see him singing on his head," said Harriet, who
seemed at once thoroughly at her ease in the atmosphere of beer and
pipes.
"It's funny, ain't it? And 'ow's the world been a-usin' you,
Harriet? Seen anything more o' that affectionate friend o' yourn?"
This was said with a grin, and a significant wink.
"Have you found out anything about her?" asked Harriet eagerly.
"Why yes, I have; somethin' as 'll amuse you. It's just as I
thought."
"Why, Bella, was in 'ere th' other night, so I says to her, 'Bella,'
I says, 'didn't you never hear of a girl called Ida Starr?' I says.
'Course I did,' she says. 'One o' the 'igh an' 'aughty lot, an' she
lived by herself somewhere in the Strand.' So it's just as I told
you."
"I can't make her out quite," said Harriet, reflecting, with her
head on one side. "I've been at her lodgings tonight, and, whilst
she was out of the room, I happened to get sight of a lot of
pawn-tickets, for gold chains and sealskins, and I don't know what."
"Spouted 'em all when she threw up the job, I s'pose," suggested
Mrs. Sprowl. "You're sure she does go to work?"
"Yes, I've had somebody to follow her and watch her. There's Waymark
goes to see her often, and I shouldn't wonder if she half keeps him;
he's just that kind of fellow."
"You haven't caught no one else going there?" asked Mrs. Sprowl,
with another of her intense winks.
"No, I haven't, not yet," replied Harriet, with sudden vehemence,
"but I believe he does go there, or else sees her somewhere else."
"Well," said the landlady, with an air of generous wisdom, "I told
you from the first as I 'adn't much opinion of men as is so anxious
to have their wives friendly with other women. There's always
something at the bottom of it, you may bet. It's my belief he's one
too many for you, Harriet; you're too simple-minded to catch him."
"I'll have a good try, though," cried the girl, deadly pale with
passion. "Perhaps I'm not so simple as you think. I'm pretty quick
in tumbling to things--no fear. If they think I don't notice what
goes on, they must take me for a damned silly fool, that's all! Why,
I've seen them wink at each other, when they thought I wasn't
looking."
"You're not such a fool as to leave them alone together?" said the
woman, who seemed to have a pleasure in working upon Harriet's
jealousy.
"No fear! But they understand each other; I can see that well
enough. And he writes to her; I'm dead sure he writes to her. Let me
get hold of a letter just once, that's all!"
"And he's orful good-natured to her, ain't he? Looks after her when
she has tea with you, and so on?"
"I should think he did. It's all--'Won't Miss Starr have this?'
and 'Won't Miss Starr have that?' He scarcely takes his eyes off of
her, all the time."
"I know, I know; it's allus the same! You keep your eyes open,
Harriet, and you'll 'ave your reward, as the Scriptures says."
When she reached home, Julian was in the uneasy condition always
brought about by these late absences. To a remark he made about the
time, she vouchsafed no answer.
"Have you been with Ida all the evening?" he asked.
She went into the bed-room, and was absent for a few minutes, then
reappeared.
"Do you know where my silver spoon is?" she asked, looking closely
at him.
"Your silver spoon?" he returned, in surprise. "Have you lost it?"
The article in question, together with a fork, hod been a
wedding-present from Mrs. Sprowl, whose character had in it a sort
of vulgar generosity, displayed at times in gifts to Harriet.
"I can't find it," Harriet said. "I was showing it to Ida Starr when
she was here on Sunday, and now I come to look for it, it's gone."
"Oh, it can't be very far off," said Julian. "You'll find it if you
look."
"But I tell you I've looked everywhere. It's gone, that's all I
know."
"Well, but--what do you mean? How can it have gone?"
"I don't know. I only know I was showing it her on Sunday."
"And what connection is there between the two things?" asked Julian,
almost sternly. "You don't wish me to understand that Ida Starr
knows anything about the spoon?"
"Come," exclaimed Julian, with a laugh, "this is too absurd,
Harriet! You must have taken leave of your senses. If it's gone,
then some one in the house has taken it."
"If you think her capable of stealing your spoon, you show complete
ignorance of her character. What do you know of her that you should
have such suspicions?"
"Never mind," said Harriet, nodding her head obstinately.
"We will talk about this again to-morrow," he said, "when you have
had time to think. You are under some strange delusion. After all, I
expect you will find the spoon, and then you'll be sorry for having
been so hasty."
Harriet became obstinately silent. She cut a piece of bread and
butter, and took it into the other room. Julian paced up and down.