Here is an extract from a letter written by Julian Casti to Waymark
in the month of May. By this time they were living near to each
other, but something was about to happen which Julian preferred to
communicate in writing.
"This will be the beginning of a new life for me. Already I have
felt a growth in my power of poetical production. Verse runs
together in my thoughts without effort; I feel ready for some really
great attempt. Have you not noticed something of this in me these
last few days? Come and see me to-night, if you can, and rejoice
with me."
This meant that Julian was about to be married. Honeymoon journey
was out of the question for him. He and his wife established
themselves in the lodgings which he was already occupying. And the
new life began.
Waymark had made Harriet's acquaintance a couple of weeks before;
Julian had brought her with him one Sunday to his friend's room. She
was then living alone, having quitted Mrs. Ogle the day after that
decisive call upon Julian. There was really no need for her to have
done so, Mrs. Ogle's part in the comedy being an imaginary one of
Harriet's devising. But Julian was led entirely by his cousin, and,
as she knew quite well, there was not the least danger of his going
on his own account to the shop in Gray's Inn Road; he dreaded the
thought of such an interview.
Waymark was not charmed with Miss Smales; the more he thought of
this marriage, the more it amazed him; for, of course, he deemed it
wholly of his friend's bringing about.
The marriage affected their intercourse. Harriet did not like to be
left alone in the evening, so Julian could not go to Waymark's, as
he had been accustomed to, and conversation in Mrs. Casti's presence
was, of course, under restraint. Waymark bore this with impatience,
and even did his best to alter it. One Sunday afternoon, about three
weeks after the marriage, he called and carried Julian off to his
room across the street. Harriet's face sufficiently indicated her
opinion of this proceeding, and Julian had difficulty m appearing at
his case. Waymark understood what was going on, and tried to discuss
the matter freely, but the other shrank from it.
"I am grievously impatient of domestic arrangements," Waymark said.
"I fancy it would never do for me to marry, unless I had limitless
cash, and my wife were as great a Bohemian as myself. By the by, I
have another letter from Maud. Her pessimism is magnificent. This
intense religiousness is no doubt a mere phase; it will pass, of
course; I wonder how things would arrange themselves if she came
back to London. Why shouldn't she come here to sit and chat, like
you do?"
"That would naturally lead to something definite," said Casti,
smiling.
"Oh, I don't know. Why should it? I'm a believer in friendship
between men and women. Of course there is in it the spice of the
difference of sex, and why not accept that as a pleasant thing? How
much better if, when we met a woman we liked, we could say frankly,
'Now let us amuse each other without any arriere pensee. If I
married you to-day, even though I feel quite ready to, I should ten
to one see some one next week who would make me regret having bound
myself. So would you, my dear. Very well, let us tantalise each
other agreeably, and be at ease in the sense that we are on the
right side of the illusion.' You laugh at the idea?"
Julian laughed, but not heartily. They passed to other things.
"I'm making an article out of Elm Court," said Waymark.
"Semi-descriptive, semi-reflective, wholly cynical Maybe it will pay
for my summer holiday. And, apropos of the same subject, I've got
great ideas. This introduction to such phases of life will prove
endlessly advantageous to me, artistically speaking. Let me get a
little more experience, and I will write a novel such as no one has
yet ventured to write, at all events in England. I begin to see my
way to magnificent effects; ye gods, such light and shade! The fact
is, the novel of every-day life is getting worn out. We must dig
deeper, get to untouched social strata. Dickens felt this, but he
had not the courage to face his subjects; his monthly numbers had to
lie on the family tea-table. Not virginibus puerisque will be my
book, I assure you, but for men and women who like to look beneath
the surface, and who understand that only as artistic material has
human life any significance. Yes, that is the conclusion I am
working round to. The artist is the only sane man. Life for its own
sake?--no; I would drink a pint of laudanum to-night. But life as
the source of splendid pictures, inexhaustible material for effects
--that can reconcile me to existence, and that only. It is a
delight followed by no bitter after-taste, and the only such delight
I know."
Harriet was very quiet when Julian returned. She went about getting
the tea with a sort of indifference; she let a cup fall and break,
but made no remark, and left her husband to pick up the pieces.
"Waymark thinks I'm neglecting him," said Julian, with a laugh, as
they sat down together.
"It's better to neglect him than to neglect me, I should think," was
Harriet's reply, in a quiet ill-natured tone which she was mistress
of.
"But couldn't we find out some way of doing neither, dear?" went on
Julian, playing with his spoon. "Now suppose I give him a couple of
hours one evening every week? You could spare that, couldn't you?
Say, from eight to ten on Wednesdays?"
"I suppose you'll go if you want to." said Harriet, rising from the
tea-table, and taking a seat sulkily by the window.
"Come, come, we won't say any more about it, if it's so disagreeable
to you," said Julian, going up to her, and coaxing her back to her
place. "You don't feel well to-day, do you? I oughtn't to have left
you this afternoon, but it was difficult to refuse, wasn't it?"
"He had no business to ask you to go. He could see I didn't like
it."
Waymark grew so accustomed to receiving Ida's note each Monday morning,
that when for the first time it failed to conic he was troubled
seriously. It happened, too, that he was able to attach a particular
significance to the omission. When they had last parted, instead of just
pressing her hand as usual, he had raised it to his lips. She frowned
and turned quickly away, saying no word. He had offended her by this
infringement of the conditions of their friendship; for once before,
when he had uttered a word which implied more than she was willing to
allow, Ida had engaged him in the distinct agreement that he should
never do or say anything that approached love-making. As, moreover, it
was distinctly understood that he should never visit her save at times
previously appointed, he could not see her till she chose to write.
After waiting in the vain expectation of some later post bringing news,
he himself wrote, simply asking the cause of her silence. The reply came
speedily.
"I have no spare time in the week. I thought you would understand this.
It was her custom to write without any formal beginning or ending; yet
Waymark felt that this note was briefer than it would have been, had all
been as usual between them. The jealousy which now often tortured him
awoke with intolerable vehemence. He spent a week of misery.
But late on Saturday evening came a letter addressed in the
well-known hand. It said--
"Sally and I are going up the river to-morrow, if it is fine. Do you
care to meet us on the boat which reaches Chelsea Pier at 10.30?
It seemed he did care; at all events he was half an hour too soon at the
pier. As the boat approached his eye soon singled out two very
quietly-dressed girls, who sat with their backs to him, and neither
turned nor made any sign of expecting any addition to their party. With
like undemonstrativeness he took a seat at Ida's side, and returned
Sally's nod and smile. Ida merely said "Good morning;" there was nothing
of displeasure on her face, however, and when he began to speak of
indifferent things she replied with the usual easy friendliness.
It was the first time he had seen her by daylight. He had been
uncertain whether she used any artificial colour on her cheeks;
seemingly she did, for now she looked much paler than usual. But the
perfect clearness of her complexion, the lustre of her eyes,
appeared to indicate complete health. She breathed the fresh sun-lit
air with frank enjoyment, and smiled to herself at objects on either
side of the river.
"By the by," Waymark said, when no words had been exchanged for some
minutes, "you didn't tell me where you were going; so I took no
ticket, and left matters to fate."
"Then this is what I propose. It's a plan I carried out two or three
times by myself last summer, and enjoyed. We get off at Putney, walk
through Roehampton, then over the park into Richmond. By that time
we shall be ready for dinner, and I know a place where we can have
it in comfort."
There was little thought of weariness throughout the delightful
walk. All three gave themselves up for the time to simple enjoyment;
their intercourse became that of children; the troubles of passion,
the miseries of self-consciousness, the strain of mutual observation
fell from them as the city dropped behind; they were once more
creatures for whom the external world alone had reality. There was a
glorious June sky; there were country roads scented with flower and
tree; the wide-gleaming common with its furze and bramble; then the
great park, with felled trunks to rest upon, and prospects of
endlessly-varied green to soothe the eye. The girls exhibited their
pleasure each in her own way. Sally threw off restraint, and sprang
about in free happiness, like one of the young roes, the sight of
which made her utter cries like a delighted child. She remembered
scenes of home, and chattered in her dialect of people and places
strange enough to both her companions. She was in constant
expectation of catching a glimpse of the sea; in spite of all
warnings it was a great surprise and disappointment to her that
Richmond Hill did not end in cliffs and breakers. Ida talked less,
but every now and then laughed in her deep enjoyment. She had no
reminiscence of country life it was enough that all about her was
new and fresh and pure; nothing to remind her of Regent Street and
the Strand. Waymark talked of he knew not what, cheerful things that
came by chance to his tongue, trifling stories, descriptions of
places, ideal plans for spending of ideal holidays; but nothing of
London, nothing of what at other times his thoughts most ran upon.
He came back to himself now and then, and smiled as he looked at the
girls, but this happened seldom.
The appetites of all three were beyond denying when they had passed
the "Star and Garter" and began to walk down into the town. Waymark
wondered whither their guide would lead them, but asked no
questions. To his surprise, Ida stopped at a small inn half way down
the hill.
"You are to go straight in," she said, with a smile, to Waymark,
"and are to tell the first person you meet that three people want
dinner. There's no choice--roast beef and vegetables, and some
pudding or other afterwards. Then you are to walk straight upstairs,
as if you knew your way, and we will follow."
These directions were obeyed, with the result that all reached an
upper chamber, wherein a table was cleanly and comfortably laid, as
if expecting them. French windows led out on to a quaint little
verandah at the back of the house, and the view thence was perfect.
The river below, winding between wooded banks, and everywhere the
same splendour of varied green which had delighted their eyes all
the morning. Just below the verandah was the tiled roof of an
outhouse, whereon lay a fine black and white cat, basking in the hot
sun. Ida clapped her hands.
"He's like poor old Grim," she cried. Then, turning to Waymark: "If
you are good, you may bring out a chair and smoke a cigar here after
dinner."
They had just began to eat, when footsteps were heard coining up the
stairs.
"Oh bother!" exclaimed Sally. "There's some one else a-comin',
s'nough."
There was. The door opened, and two gentlemen walked in. Waymark
looked up, and to his astonishment recognised his old friends O'Gree
and Egger. Mr. O'Gree was mopping his face with a handkerchief, and
looked red and hungry; Mr. Egger was resplendent in a very
broad-brimmed straw hat, the glistening newness of which contrasted
with the rest of his attire, which had known no variation since his
first arrival at Dr. Tootle's. He, too, was perspiring profusely,
and, as he entered, was just in the act of taking out the great
yellow handkerchief which Waymark had seen him chewing so often in
the bitterness of his spirit.
"Hollo, Waymark, is it you?" cried Mr. O'Gree, forgetting the
presence of the strangers in his astonishment. "Sure, and they told
us we'd find a gentleman here."
"And I was the last person you would have thought of as answering
that description?"
"Well, no, I didn't mean that. I meant there was no mention of the
ladies."
Waymark flashed a question at Ida with his eyes, and understood her
assent in the smile and slight motion of the head.
The new-comers accordingly made the acquaintance of Miss Starr and
Miss Fisher (that was Sally's name), and took seats at the table, to
await the arrival of their dinners. Both were on their good
behaviour. Mr. O'Gree managed to place himself at Sally's left hand,
and led the conversation with the natural ease of an Irishman,
especially delighted if Sally herself seemed to appreciate his
efforts to be entertaining.
"Now, who'd have thought of the like of this." he exclaimed. "And we
came in here by the merest chance; sure, there's a fatality in these
things. We've walked all the way from Hammersmith."
"Bedad," replied that gentleman, who had got hold of his friend's
exclamation, and used it with killing effect; "I made my possible,
but, bedad, I could not much more."
"You both look warm," Waymark observed, smiling. "I fear you
hurried. You should have been leisurely, as we were."
"Now that's cruel, Waymark. You needn't have reflected upon our
solitariness. If we'd been blessed with society such as you had,
we'd have come slow enough. As it was, we thought a good deal of our
dinners."
No fresh guests appeared to disturb the party. When all had appeased
their hunger, Waymark took a chair out on to the verandah for Ida.
He was spared the trouble of providing in the same way for Sally by
Mr. O'Gree's ready offices. Poor Egger, finding himself deserted,
opened a piano there was in the room, and began to run his finger
over the keys.
"Let us have one of your German songs, my boy," cried O'Gree.
"But it is the Sunday, and we arc still in England," said the Swiss,
hesitating.
"Pooh, never mind," said Waymark. "We'll shut the door. Sing my
favourite, Mr. Egger,--'Wenn's Mailufterl.'"
When they left the inn, Waymark walked first with Ida, and Mr.
O'Gree followed with Sally. Egger brought up the rear; he had
relapsed into a dreamy mood, and his mind seemed occupied with
unearthly things.
With no little amusement Waymark had noted Sally's demeanour under
Mr. O'Gree's attentions. The girl had evidently made up her mind to
be absolutely proper. The Irishman's respectful delicacy was
something so new to her and so pleasant, and the question with her
was how she could sufficiently show her appreciation without at the
same time forfeiting his good opinion for becoming modesty. All so
new to her, accustomed to make an art of forwardness, and to school
herself in the endurance of brutality. She was constantly blushing
in the most unfeigned way at his neatly-turned little compliments,
and, when she spoke, did so with a pretty air of self-distrust which
sat quite charmingly on her. Fain, fain would O'Gree have proposed
to journey back to London by the same train, but good taste and good
sense prevailed with him. At the ticket-barrier there was a parting.
"How delightful it would be, Miss Fisher," said Mr. O'Gree, in
something like a whisper, "if this lucky chance happened again. If I
only knew when you were coming again, there's no telling but it
might."
Sally gave her hand, smiled, evidently wished to say something, but
ended by turning away and running after her companions.