One is never so enthusiastic in the early morning, when the emotions
are calmest and the nerves at their steadiest. But I was determined
to try to have the baseball match postponed. There could be no
difficulty. One day was as much of a holiday as another to these
easy-going fellows. But The Duke, when I suggested a change in the
day, simply raised his eyebrows an eighth of an inch and said:
"Can't see why the day should be changed." Bruce stormed and swore
all sorts of destruction upon himself if he was going to change his
style of life for any man. The others followed The Duke's lead.
That Sunday was a day of incongruities. The Old and the New, the
East and the West, the reverential Past and iconoclastic Present
were jumbling themselves together in bewildering confusion. The
baseball match was played with much vigor and profanity. The
expression on The Pilot's face, as he stood watching for a while,
was a curious mixture of interest, surprise, doubt and pain. He
was readjusting himself. He was so made as to be extremely
sensitive to his surroundings. He took on color quickly. The
utter indifference to the audacious disregard of all he had
hitherto considered sacred and essential was disconcerting. They
were all so dead sure. How did he know they were wrong? It was
his first near view of practical, living skepticism. Skepticism in
a book did not disturb him; he could put down words against it.
But here it was alive, cheerful, attractive, indeed fascinating;
for these men in their western garb and with their western swing
had captured his imagination. He was in a fierce struggle, and in
a few minutes I saw him disappear into the coulee.
Meantime the match went uproariously on to a finish, with the
result that the champions of "Home" had "to stand The Painkiller,"
their defeat being due chiefly to the work of Hi and Bronco Bill as
pitcher and catcher.
The celebration was in full swing; or as Hi put it, "the boys were
takin' their pizen good an' calm," when in walked The Pilot. His
face was still troubled and his lips were drawn and blue, as if he
were in pain. A silence fell on the men as he walked in through
the crowd and up to the bar. He stood a moment hesitating, looking
round upon the faces flushed and hot that were now turned toward
him in curious defiance. He noticed the look, and it pulled him
together. He faced about toward old Latour and asked in a high,
clear voice:
The lad paused for an instant, but only for an instant. Then,
lifting a pile of hymn books he had near him on the counter, he
said in a grave, sweet voice, and with the quiver of a smile about
his lips:
"Gentlemen, Mr. Latour has allowed me this room for a religious
service. It will give me great pleasure if you will all join," and
immediately he handed a book to Bronco Bill, who, surprised, took
it as if he did not know what to do with it. The others followed
Bronco's lead till he came to Bruce, who refused, saying roughly:
The missionary flushed and drew back as if he had been struck, but
immediately, as if unconsciously, The Duke, who was standing near,
stretched out his hand and said, with a courteous bow, "I thank
you; I should be glad of one."
"Thank you," replied The Pilot, simply, as he handed him a book.
The men seated themselves upon the bench that ran round the room,
or leaned up against the counter, and most of them took off their
hats. Just then in came Muir, and behind him his little wife.
In an instant The Duke was on his feet, and every hat came off.
The missionary stood up at the bar, and announced the hymn, "Jesus,
Lover of My Soul." The silence that followed was broken by the
sound of a horse galloping. A buckskin bronco shot past the
window, and in a few moments there appeared at the door the Old
Timer. He was about to stride in when the unusual sight of a row
of men sitting solemnly with hymn books in their hands held him
fast at the door. He gazed in an amazed, helpless way upon the
men, then at the missionary, then back at the men, and stood
speechless. Suddenly there was a high, shrill, boyish laugh, and
the men turned to see the missionary in a fit of laughter. It
certainly was a shock to any lingering ideas of religious propriety
they might have about them; but the contrast between his frank,
laughing face and the amazed and disgusted face of the shaggy old
man in the doorway was too much for them, and one by one they gave
way to roars of laughter. The Old Timer, however, kept his face
unmoved, strode up to the bar and nodded to old Latour, who served
him his drink, which he took at a gulp.
"Here, old man!" called out Bill, "get into the game; here's your
deck," offering him his book. But the missionary was before him,
and, with very beautiful grace, he handed the Old Timer a book and
pointed him to a seat.
I shall never forget that service. As a religious affair it was a
dead failure, but somehow I think The Pilot, as Hi approvingly
said, "got in his funny work," and it was not wholly a defeat. The
first hymn was sung chiefly by the missionary and Mrs. Muir, whose
voice was very high, with one or two of the men softly whistling an
accompaniment. The second hymn was better, and then came the
Lesson, the story of the feeding of the five thousand. As the
missionary finished the story, Bill, who had been listening with
great interest, said:
"Five loaves and two fishes," answered Bruce for the missionary.
"Well," drawled Bill, with the air of a man who has reached a
conclusion, "that's a little too unusual for me. Why," looking
pityingly at the missionary, "it ain't natarel."
"Right you are, my boy," said Bruce, with a laugh. "It's deucedly
unnatural."
"Not for Him," said the missionary, quietly. Then Bruce joyfully
took him up and led him on into a discussion of evidences, and from
evidences into metaphysics, the origin of evil and the freedom of
the will, till the missionary, as Bill said, "was rattled worse nor
a rooster in the dark." Poor little Mrs. Muir was much scandalized
and looked anxiously at her husband, wishing him to take her out.
But help came from an unexpected quarter, and Hi suddenly called
out:
"Here you, Bill, shut your blanked jaw, and you, Bruce, give the
man a chance to work off his music."
"That's so! Fair play! Go on!" were the cries that came in
response to Hi's appeal.
The missionary, who was all trembling and much troubled, gave Hi a
grateful look, and said:
"I'm afraid there are a great many things I don't understand, and I
am not good at argument." There were shouts of "Go on! fire ahead,
play the game!" but he said, "I think we will close the service
with a hymn." His frankness and modesty, and his respectful,
courteous manner gained the sympathy of the men, so that all joined
heartily in singing, "Sun of My Soul." In the prayer that followed
his voice grew steady and his nerve came back to him. The words
were very simple, and the petitions were mostly for light and for
strength. With a few words of remembrance of "those in our homes
far away who think of us and pray for us and never forget," this
strange service was brought to a close.
After the missionary had stepped out, the whole affair was
discussed with great warmth. Hi Kendal thought "The Pilot didn't
have no fair show," maintaining that when he was "ropin' a steer he
didn't want no blanked tenderfoot to be shovin' in his rope like
Bill there." But Bill steadily maintained his position that "the
story of that there picnic was a little too unusual" for him.
Bruce was trying meanwhile to beguile The Duke into a discussion of
the physics and metaphysics of the case. But The Duke refused with
quiet contempt to be drawn into a region where he felt himself a
stranger. He preferred poker himself, if Bruce cared to take a
hand; and so the evening went on, with the theological discussion
by Hi and Bill in a judicial, friendly spirit in one corner, while
the others for the most part played poker.
When the missionary returned late there were only a few left in the
room, among them The Duke and Bruce, who was drinking steadily and
losing money. The missionary's presence seemed to irritate him,
and he played even more recklessly than usual, swearing deeply at
every loss. At the door the missionary stood looking up into the
night sky and humming softly "Sun of My Soul," and after a few
minutes The Duke joined in humming a bass to the air till Bruce
could contain himself no longer.
"I say," he called out, "this isn't any blanked prayer-meeting, is
it?"
The Duke ceased humming, and, looking at Bruce, said quietly:
"Well, what is it? What's the trouble?"
"Trouble!" shouted Bruce. "I don't see what hymn-singing has to do
with a poker game."
"Oh, I see! I beg pardon! Was I singing?" said The Duke. Then
after a pause he added, "You're quite right. I say, Bruce, let's
quit. Something has got on to your nerves." And coolly sweeping
his pile into his pocket, he gave up the game. With an oath Bruce
left the table, took another drink, and went unsteadily out to his
horse, and soon we heard him ride away into the darkness, singing
snatches of the hymn and swearing the most awful oaths.
The missionary's face was white with horror. It was all new and
horrible to him.
"Don't you worry, youngster," said The Duke, in his loftiest
manner, "he'll get along."
The luminous, dreamy eyes grew hard and bright as they looked The
Duke in the face.
"Yes, I shall worry; but you ought to worry more."
"Ah!" said The Duke, raising his brows and smiling gently upon the
bright, stern young face lifted up to his. "I didn't notice that I
had asked your opinion."
"If anything should happen to him," replied the missionary, quickly,
"I should consider you largely responsible."
"That would be kind," said The Duke, still smiling with his lips.
But after a moment's steady look into the missionary's eyes he
nodded his head twice or thrice, and, without further word, turned
away.
"They beat me this afternoon," he cried, "but thank God, I know now
they are wrong and I am right! I don't understand! I can't see my
way through! But I am right! It's true! I feel it's true! Men
can't live without Him, and be men!"
And long after I went to my shack that night I saw before me the
eager face with the luminous eyes and heard the triumphant cry: "I
feel it's true! Men can't live without Him, and be men!" and I
knew that though his first Sunday ended in defeat there was victory
yet awaiting him.