Faust. If heaven was made for man, 'twas made for me.
Good Angel. Faustus, repent; yet heaven will pity thee.
Bad Angel. Thou art a spirit, God cannot pity thee.
Faust. Be I a devil, yet God may pity me.
Bad Angel. Too late.
Good Angel. Never too late if Faustus will repent.
Bad Angel. If thou repent, devils will tear thee in pieces.
Old Man. I see an angel hover o'er thy head,
And with a vial full of precious grace,
Offers to pour the same into thy soul.
MARLOWE.--Doctor Faustus.
Mr. Appleditch had had some business-misfortunes, not of a heavy
nature, but sufficient to cast a gloom over the house in Dervish
Town, and especially over the face of his spouse, who had set her
heart on a new carpet for her drawing-room, and feared she ought not
to procure it now. It is wonderful how conscientious some people
are towards their balance at the banker's. How the drawing-room,
however, could come to want a new carpet is something mysterious,
except there is a peculiar power of decay inherent in things
deprived of use. These influences operating, however, she began to
think that the two scions of grocery were not drawing nine
shillings' worth a week of the sap of divinity. This she hinted to
Mr. Appleditch. It was resolved to give Hugh warning.
As it would involve some awkwardness to state reasons, Mrs.
Appleditch resolved to quarrel with him, as the easiest way of
prefacing his discharge. It was the way she took with her
maids-of-all-work; for it was grand in itself, and always left her
with a comfortable feeling of injured dignity.
As a preliminary course, she began to treat him with still less
politeness than before. Hugh was so careless of her behaviour, that
this made no impression upon him. But he came to understand it all
afterwards, from putting together the remarks of the children, and
the partial communications of Mr. Appleditch to Miss Talbot, which
that good lady innocently imparted to her lodger.
At length, one day, she came into the room where Hugh was more busy
in teaching than his pupils were in learning, and seated herself by
the fire to watch for an opportunity. This was soon found. For the
boys, rendered still more inattentive by the presence of their
mother, could not be induced to fix the least thought upon the
matter in hand; so that Hugh was compelled to go over the same thing
again and again, without success. At last he said:
"I am afraid, Mrs. Appleditch, I must ask you to interfere, for I
cannot get any attention from the boys to-day."
"And how could it be otherwise, Mr. Sutherland, when you keep
wearing them out with going over and over the same thing, till they
are sick of it? Why don't you go on?"
"How can I go on when they have not learned the thing they are at?
That would be to build the chimneys before the walls."
"It is very easy to be witty, sir; but I beg you will behave more
respectfully to me in the presence of my children, innocent lambs!"
Looking round at the moment, Hugh caught in his face what the elder
lamb had intended for his back, a grimace hideous enough to have
procured him instant promotion in the kingdom of apes. The mother
saw it too, and added:
"You see you cannot make them respect you. Really, Mr. Sutherland!"
Hugh was about to reply, to the effect that it was useless, in such
circumstances, to attempt teaching them at all, some utterance of
which sort was watched for as the occasion for his instant
dismission; but at that very moment a carriage and pair pulled
sharply up at the door, with more than the usual amount of
quadrupedation, and mother and sons darted simultaneously to the
window.
"My!" cried Johnnie, "what a rum go! Isn't that a jolly carriage,
Peetie?"
"Be quiet, children," said their mother, as she saw a footman get
down and approach the door.
"Look at that buffer," said Johnnie. "Do come and see this grand
footman, Mr. Sutherland. He's such a gentleman!"
A box on the ear from his mother silenced him. The servant entering
with some perturbation a moment after, addressed her mistress, for
she dared not address any one else while she was in the room:
"Please 'm, the carriage is astin' after Mr. Sutherland."
The lady turned to Mr. Sutherland, who, although surprised as well,
was not inclined to show his surprise to Mrs. Appleditch.
"I did not know you had carriage-friends, Mr. Sutherland," said she,
with a toss of her head.
"Neither did I," answered Hugh. "But I will go and see who it is."
When he reached the street, he found Harry on the pavement, who
having got out of the carriage, and not having been asked into the
house, was unable to stand still for impatience. As soon as he saw
his tutor, he bounded to him, and threw his arms round his neck,
standing as they were in the open street. Tears of delight filled
his eyes.
"Come, come, come," said Harry; "we all want you."
Harry jumped into the carriage, telling the coachman to drive where
he pleased, and be back at the same place in half-an-hour. Hugh
returned into the house.
As may be supposed, Margaret was the means of this happy meeting.
Although she saw plainly enough that Euphra would like to see Hugh,
she did not for some time make up her mind to send for him. The
circumstances which made her resolve to do so were these.
For some days Euphra seemed to be gradually regaining her health and
composure of mind. One evening, after a longer talk than usual,
Margaret had left her in bed, and had gone to her own room. She was
just preparing to get into bed herself, when a knock at her door
startled her, and going to it, she saw Euphra standing there, pale
as death, with nothing on but her nightgown, notwithstanding the
bitter cold of an early and severe frost. She thought at first she
must be walking in her sleep, but the scared intelligence of her
open eyes, soon satisfied her that it was not so.
"What is the matter, dear Miss Cameron?" she said, as calmly as she
could.
"He is coming. He wants me. If he calls me, I must go."
"No, you shall not go," rejoined Margaret, firmly.
"I must, I must," answered Euphra, wringing her hands.
"Do come in," said Margaret, "you must not stand there in the cold."
"But besides the fear, there is something that I can't describe,
that always keeps telling me--no, not telling me, pushing me--no,
drawing me, as if I could not rest a moment till I go. I cannot
describe it. I hate to go, and yet I feel that if I were cold in my
grave, I must rise and go if he called me. I wish I could tell you
what it is like. It is as if some demon were shaking my soul till I
yielded and went. Oh! don't despise me. I can't help it."
"My darling, I don't, I can't despise you. You shall not go to
him."
"But I must," answered she, with a despairing faintness more
convincing than any vehemence; and then began to weep with a slow,
hopeless weeping, like the rain of a November eve.
Margaret got out of bed. Euphra thought she was offended. Starting
up, she clasped her hands, and said:
"No, no, I didn't mean to leave you for a moment. Lie down again,
dear, and cry as much as you like. I am going to read a little bit
out of the New Testament to you."
Margaret got a New Testament, and read part of that chapter of St.
John's Gospel which speaks about human labour and the bread of life.
She stopped at these words:
"For I came down from heaven, not to do mine own will, but the will
of him that sent me."
Euphra's tears had ceased. The sound of Margaret's voice, which, if
it lost in sweetness by becoming more Scotch when she read the
Gospel, yet gained thereby in pathos, and the power of the blessed
words themselves, had soothed the troubled spirit a little, and she
lay quiet.
"You know he is not, Margaret. He is the worst man alive."
"Then it cannot be God's will that you should go to him."
"But one does many things that are not God's will."
"But it is God's will that you should not go to him."
Euphra lay silent for a few moments. Suddenly she exclaimed:
"Then I must not go to him,"--got out of bed, threw herself on her
knees by the bedside, and holding up her clasped hands, said, in low
tones that sounded as if forced from her by agony:
"I won't! I won't! O God, I will not. Help me, help me!"
Margaret knelt beside her, and put her arm round her. Euphra spoke
no more, but remained kneeling, with her extended arms and clasped
hands lying on the bed, and her head laid between them. At length
Margaret grew alarmed, and looked at her. But she found that she
was in a sweet sleep. She gently disengaged herself, and covering
her up soft and warm, left her to sleep out her God-sent sleep
undisturbed, while she sat beside, and watched for her waking.
She slept thus for an hour. Then lifting her head, and seeing
Margaret, she rose quietly, as if from her prayers, and said with a
smile:
"Yes, so I have, somewhere," she repeated, and crept into bed like a
child, lay down, and was asleep again in a moment.
Margaret watched her for another hour, and then seeing no signs of
restlessness, but that on the contrary her sleep was profound, lay
down beside her, and soon shared in that repose which to weary women
and men is God's best gift.
She rose at her usual hour the next day, and was dressed before
Euphra awoke. It was a cold grey December morning, with the
hoar-frost lying thick on the roofs of the houses. Euphra opened
her eyes while Margaret was busy lighting the fire. Seeing that she
was there, she closed them again, and fell once more fast asleep.
Before she woke again, Margaret had some tea ready for her; after
taking which, she felt able to get up. She rose looking more bright
and hopeful than Margaret had seen her before.
But Margaret, who watched her intently through the day, saw a change
come over her cheer. Her face grew pale and troubled. Now and then
her eyes were fixed on vacancy; and again she would look at Margaret
with a woebegone expression of countenance; but presently, as if
recollecting herself, would smile and look cheerful for a moment.
Margaret saw that the conflict was coming on, if not already
begun--that at least its shadow was upon her; and thinking that if
she could have a talk with Hugh about what he had been doing, it
would comfort her a little, and divert her thoughts from herself,
even if no farther or more pleasantly than to the count, she let
Harry know Hugh's address, as given in the letter to her father.
She was certain that, if Harry succeeded in finding him, nothing
more was necessary to insure his being brought to Mrs. Elton's. As
we have seen, Harry had traced him to Buccleuch Terrace.
Hugh re-entered the house in the same mind in which he had gone out;
namely, that after Mrs. Appleditch's behaviour to him before his
pupils, he could not remain their tutor any longer, however great
his need might be of the pittance he received for his services.
But although Mrs. Appleditch's first feeling had been jealousy of
Hugh's acquaintance with "carriage-people," the toadyism which is so
essential an element of such jealousy, had by this time revived; and
when Hugh was proceeding to finish the lesson he had begun,
intending it to be his last, she said:
"Why didn't you ask your friend into the drawing-room, Mr.
Sutherland?"
"Good gracious! The drawing-room!" thought Hugh--but answered: "He
will fetch me when the lesson is over."
"I am sure, sir, any friends of yours that like to call upon you
here, will be very welcome. It will be more agreeable to you to
receive them here, of course; for your accommodation at poor Miss
Talbot's is hardly suitable for such visitors."
"I am sorry to say, however," answered Hugh, "that after the way you
have spoken to me to-day, in the presence of my pupils, I cannot
continue my relation to them any longer."
"Ho! ho!" resnorted the lady, indignation and scorn mingling with
mortification; "our grand visitors have set our backs up. Very
well, Mr. Sutherland, you will oblige me by leaving the house at
once. Don't trouble yourself, pray, to finish the lesson. I will
pay you for it all the same. Anything to get rid of a man who
insults me before the very faces of my innocent lambs! And please
to remember," she added, as she pulled out her purse, while Hugh was
collecting some books he had lent the boys, "that when you were
starving, my husband and I took you in and gave you employment out
of charity--pure charity, Mr. Sutherland. Here is your money."
"Good morning, Mrs. Appleditch," said Hugh; and walked out with his
books under his arm, leaving her with the money in her hand.
He had to knock his feet on the pavement in front of the house, to
keep them from freezing, for half-an-hour, before the carriage
arrived to take him away. As soon as it came up, he jumped into it,
and was carried off in triumph by Harry.
Mrs. Elton received him kindly. Euphra held out her hand with a
slight blush, and the quiet familiarity of an old friend. Hugh
could almost have fallen in love with her again, from compassion for
her pale, worn face, and subdued expression.
Mrs. Elton went out in the carriage almost directly, and Euphra
begged Harry to leave them alone, as she had something to talk to
Mr. Sutherland about.
"Have you found any trace of Count Halkar, Hugh?" she said, the
moment they were by themselves.
"I am very sorry to say I have not. I have done my best."
"I am quite sure of that.--I just wanted to tell you, that, from
certain indications which no one could understand so well as myself,
I think you will have more chance of finding him now."
"I am delighted to hear it," responded Hugh. "If I only had him!"
"But I am not sure of it. I think he is in London; but he may be in
Bohemia, for anything I know. I shall, however, in all probability,
know more about him within a few days."
Hugh resolved to go at once to Falconer, and communicate to him what
Euphra had told him. But he said nothing to her as to the means by
which he had tried to discover the count; for although he felt sure
that he had done right in telling Falconer all about it, he was
afraid lest Euphra, not knowing what sort of a man he was, might not
like it. Euphra, on her part, did not mention Margaret's name; for
she had begged her not to do so.
"Perhaps.--I will, if I can. I do wish you could get the ring. I
have a painful feeling that it gives him power over me."
"That can only be a nervous fancy, surely," Hugh ventured to say.
"Perhaps it is. I don't know. But, still, without that, there are
plenty of reasons for wishing to recover it. He will put it to a
bad use, if he can. But for your sake, especially, I wish we could
get it."
"It was me wandering about it at night, looking for that very ring,
to give to the count. It was shameful. But I did. Those reports
prevented me from being found out. But I hope not many ghosts are
so miserable as I was.--You remember my speaking to you of Mr.
Arnold's jewels?"
"Don't be too sure of anything about me. I don't know what I might
have been led to do. But I am very sorry. Do forgive me."
"I cannot allow that I have anything to forgive. But tell me,
Euphra, were you the creature, in white that I saw in the Ghost's
Walk one night? I don't mean the last time."
"Very likely," she answered, bending her head yet lower, with a
sigh.
"Then who was the creature in black that met you? And what became
of you then?"
"Did you see her?" rejoined Euphra, turning paler still. "I fainted
at sight of her. I took her for the nun that hangs in that horrid
room."
"So did I," said Hugh. "But you could not have lain long; for I went
up to the spot where you vanished, and found nothing."
"I suppose I got into the shrubbery before I fell. Or the count
dragged me in.--But was that really a ghost? I feel now as if it
was a good messenger, whether ghost or not, come to warn me, if I
had had the courage to listen. I wish I had taken the warning."
They talked about these and other things, till Mrs. Elton, who had
made Hugh promise to stay to lunch, returned. When they were seated
at table, the kind-hearted woman said:
"Now, Mr. Sutherland, when will you begin again with Harry?"
"Of course you will come and give him lessons, poor boy. He will be
broken-hearted if you don't."
"I wish I could. But I cannot--at least yet; for I know his father
was dissatisfied with me. That was one of the reasons that made him
send Harry to London."
Harry looked wretchedly disappointed, but said nothing.
"I am sure of it, though. I am very sorry he has mistaken me; but
he will know me better some day."
"I will take all the responsibility," persisted Mrs. Elton.
"But unfortunately the responsibility sticks too fast for you to
take it. I cannot get rid of my share if I would."
"You are too particular. I am sure Mr. Arnold never could have
meant that. This is my house too."
"But Harry is his boy. If you will let me come and see him
sometimes, I shall be very thankful, though. I may be useful to him
without giving him lessons."
"James, tell the coachman I want the carriage in an hour."
Mrs. Elton was as submissive to her coachman as ladies who have
carriages generally are, and would not have dreamed of ordering the
horses out so soon again for herself; but she forgot everything else
when a friend was in need of help, and became perfectly
pachydermatous to the offended looks or indignant hints of that
important functionary.
Within a few minutes after Hugh took his leave, Mrs. Elton was on
her way to repeat a visit she had already paid the same morning, and
to make several other calls, with the express object of finding
pupils for Hugh. But in this she was not so successful as she had
expected. In fact, no one whom she could think of, wanted such
services at present. She returned home quite down-hearted, and all
but convinced that nothing could be done before the approach of the
London season.